I feel like a total mess.
Well, there's a lot going on in my head today after I got home at 8 in the morning a while ago. And then I slept 'til noon and that's when I started feeling depressed.
Last night was just a disaster, and it was supposed to be fun.
So I feel frustrated. Howard disappointed me last night so we fought, and made up.It's just that, I don't want our relationship to be a case of "You and me against the world". And then a really close friend of mine did something really...unethical? I just don't know what to do and I can't understand why he has to do that.
And then there's another feeling that's seems to be eating up my insides causing me to feel almost sick. You know that terrible feeling where you feel that you are unloved; that even if something bad happens to you, say, you are murdered on a dark alley and still your so-called friends couldn't care less or give a shit or may not even attend your wake. I don't know why but I'm guessing that this could be possible since my name was left out of a group message. I wonder why it was even sent to me in the first place when my name isn't even in there. So I guess what I'll just do is forget I was even there last night.
Erase, erase. I wasn't in that "REUNION".
And then I feel like a karma victim. You see, yesterday I went to school to get my clearance and enroll and I avoided someone because I am annoyed by her. And yes, I am aware that it was a mean thing to do since it was so obvious that I am avoiding her but I also feel that it's the right thing to do, in a way. Better that than to pretend I still like her. But I have reason to hate her. Hate is a strong feeling, yes. It is also inevitable. In this life, we come across people who are so hateful like a bottle of poison or a group of nasty, skanky bitches. So I really cannot stop not liking her.
I cannot help thinking that my meanness caused the disastrous night.
But whatever.
There's no stopping sucky days and nights from happening.
However, there's this tiny little bit of silver lining in that suckfest of a night. I get to be with Howard and he said sorry and admitted that he was the wrong one for being KJ. And I love him for that. There is nothing I can do about the impressions he had made but whatever. He stated his point for being like that so I listened and understood him. I'm not gonna change my mind about him.






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Sorry for this muddled, confused post. I was hoping that by writing my feelings down, some of their weight may be lifted from me.
Let's just hope I'm right.

So.
I'm done with all 13 books of the A Series of Unfortunate Events series. Like with Harry Potter, reading the last chapter, the last few words, made me...sad. Reading a book series could do that to you. It's like saying good-bye to someone that has been your constant companion.
When I first saw these books, I thought they were merely children's books, you know, with really predictable endings and a shallow plot. I don't know what made me buy the first six books (in paperback) on a book fair about two years ago. I thought that the series only consists of those six books but I was shocked that it has actually 13! And the remaining seven aren't available in paperback anymore so I told myself that there's no way I could finish and collect all 13. But that was impossible since I got so hooked and each book contains mystery sfter mystery so I couldn't see how I can stop. So yeah, I collected all 13, better that than sleepless nights. OK, exaggeration...
And now I'm finally done and I guess I could say that there's more to the book than meets the eye. Snicket's style is so unique. There are parts wherein I'm snickering and there also parts wherein the words made me just stop and think for a while. I wanted to highlight those words in orange ink that glows. But I didn't of course. It's just that, there's truth to those descriptions of feelings that we encounter everyday during the course of our lives. Lemony Snicket was able to describe them, along with things like fate, miracles, darkness, etc. in a totally different way. And what could be cooler than that, huh?

Here are some quotes taken from the books which either threw me into a fit of giggles, causing my family members to threaten me with a straitjacket or threw me into a "pensive mood", a phrase which here means "closed the book for a while and stared into space, thinking how a remarkable writer Lemony Snicket is for writing those remarkable things." ;-D

"The moral of 'The Three Bears,' for instance, is 'Never break into someone else's house." The moral of "Snow White" is "Never eat apples." The moral of World War One is "Never assassinate Archduke Ferdinand."

-from Book the Fourth: The Miserable Mill

"Assumptions are dangerous things to make, and like all dangerous things to make--bombs for instance, or strawberry shortcake--if you make even the tiniest mistake you can find yourself in terrible trouble."

-from Book the Fifth: The Austere Academy

"Miracles are like meatballs because nobody knows what they are made of, where they came from or how often they should appear."

-from Book the Ninth: The Carnivorous Carnival

"But the sad truth is that the truth is sad, and what you want does not matter. A series of unfortunate events can happen to anyone, no matter what they want."

-from Book the Ninth: The Carnivorous Carnival

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like."

-from Book the Tenth: The Slippey Slope

"These are dark days, as dark as a crow flying through a pitch black night."

-from Book the Twelfth: The Penultimate Peril

"The world is a wicked place."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

"Of course I'm trying to trick you! That's the way of the world, Baudelaires. Everyone runs around with their secrets and their schemes, trying to outwit everyone else."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

"Perhaps if we saw what was ahead of us, and glimpsed the crimes, follies, and misfortunes that would befall us later on, we would all stay in our mother's wombs, and there would be nobody in the world but a great number of very fat, very irritated women."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

I enjoyed Stardust.
Although of course, there are differences between the movie and the book.
I'm too lazy to write today and I just wanted to update and I know I'm not good in writing reviews so I'm gonna stop right there.

And oh, did you know that Michelle Pfeiffer is already 49 YEARS OLD!?
Yes, she is and she still looks like this:



I think she may have gotten Yvaine's heart, after all.

Britney reminds me of my childhood, when Westlife is my Panic! at the Disco and Caroline Keene (Nancy Drew) is my Neil Gaiman.
Everybody changes. That's Britney now. She can't be that sweet-faced schoolgirl again. Ika nga ni Francis Bacon, "That which is past is gone and irrevocable." Kumbaga, nagawa na niya lahat un eh. She has been the cute top-selling popstar and now she's a trainwreck, yet still highly paid.
She's only a shadow of her former self. BUT, it doesn't mean that she couldn't be the great peformer she once was. If she could only fix her life and herself and rehearse well she could get another chance and give her fans the comeback they're looking for. But again, we can't expect her to be like her "Baby One More Time", "Sometimes" and "Born To Make You Happy" self again. We have to accept a new, different Britney.

...sans the stripper poles and ugly wigs, I hope.

(see...I told you I'm addicted to celebrity gossip blogs)