Okay, this is it. I decided this is enough. I just have to forget him. Okay, they say that blogging is like a therapy...like chocolate. And this is also a great way to express one's feelings. So here it goes:
I really, badly, truly want to forget those summer days when he...I don't know if he's serious with me that time. But anyway, I just can't stay stuck on him forever. He's a loser, a jerk, a playboy. He don't deserve these feelings. Because he's a loser. He sucks. But it's not easy to forget him because even the smallest of things remind me of him. This is just a few of the things which remind me of him:
1. Full House
2. Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith
3. ice cream
4. The Day You Said Goodnight
5. Minamalas
6. RO
7. my cellphone
8. Sweet 18
9. Stillness(a story I'm currently, and I don't know if I'll still continue, writing)
10. YM
11. Batman(Hmm...I wonder how Tunog is doing)
12. Skyflakes(lol)
13. Galleria
...anyway, see, even ice cream reminds me of him! Oh God help me. And there's one more thing(and other things as well) but I won't write it here since it's gonna be too obvious. I think I need to seek help from an expert. *Sigh* I wonder if he knows what he's doing to me. But I guess not. I guess he's too busy with that girl that Des said is hitsurang palaka. LOL. But I think she looks like a lizard. LOLLOLLOL. Joke. She's out of this.
Damn you, _____! Argh! How I hate you! And how I still miss you in spite of myself!
"I hate everything about him! The way he walks, his conceited smile, his voice. Just the mere sight of him makes me want to hit him! Arrgh! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!"
"...I love you, I love you, I miss you...still"
Ho hum. How the heck can I forget you when you're fucking everywhere!?! When I close my eyes it's you I see(Everywhere??)...Everytime I try to sleep I dream of you and it feels so real...
So, starting now, I'll try to forget him. I'll try to forget he meant something to me. I'll try...then maybe my blog entries wouldn't always be about him...

"You're in everyone I see
So tell me do you still see me?"

We went to Shangri-La yesterday to buy Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, the sixth installment to the Harry Potter series. I started reading it last night and I'm in page 108 now.
Anyway, there are no classes today so I had my hair relaxed. I hope it will stay like this forever so that I don't have to go to the parlor everytime my hair has gone off having its own life. The reason why it has gone all frizzy is because I had it cut because of those nasty split ends! Oh well...this is just the difficulties I go through as a woman. I do wish sometimes that I'm a guy. You know, you don't have to get monthly periods...but anyway, nothing interesting has happened to me recently. So I don't have that much to blog about.

I Miss You
-Blink 182-

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of a morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can laways find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

I miss you, miss you

Where are you?
And i'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders, catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
(I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head
(I miss you, I miss you)

So...here we go again with the Speech Choir contest held in our school every year. Actually, since it's still August, Sabayang Pagbigkas muna. Honestly, I've always hated practicing for speech choirs. Now that I'm separated from the Tsunami Gang, I have no one to go with and talk to during practices. *Sigh*
Anyway, so far the lowest result I got in the exams is the test in Chemistry(curse this subject and Swarding!). Here's the list of my scores:

Geometry...27/40(phew!)
Chem...11/25(well...)
Social Studies...17/25
Filipino...19/25
Accounting...21/25(!)
Statistics...17/25
English...22/30(haha)
CLE...15/25

The others I don't know yet. So as you can see, Chem is the only subject in which I failed. And to make up for it, I'm going to report about Isotopes on Monday. Oh well...
I don't have much to blog about actually. I didn't see him all day. Why would I want to see him anyway? I'm trying to 4get him! Trying...

Promise
-Matchbook Romance-

What would you say if I asked you not to go?
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go?
Promise me you'll never let me go

Now the stars aren't out tonight
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

CHORUS:
I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know
You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say
"Please don't, well please don't leave me"

CHORUS

You're not making this easy

Take my hand and never let me go
Take my hand and never let me go
Promise me
You'll never let go...
Make this last forever

CHORUS

You're not making this easy...

I'll fall asleep tonight
'Cause that brings me closer to you

---I hope I will be able to finish my story proposal. I won't let laziness overcome me...

It was my idea! I told him I'd text him if ever I find a case study. And that he'll do the same. But now, he had already submitted a story proposal! Arrrrrgh! The topic was my idea!!! Mine mine mine! And I can't think of any more ideas! My mind's currently screwed and upside down! I was thinking of going to KNN on Saturday to transcribe. What can I do? Is it my fault I can't find a case study? I already found one but she's not totally the breadwinner! Arrrgh!

But on the bright side, we watched Fantastic Four yesterday. And it was an "okay" movie, unlike Batman Begins.


And I also bought Hale's CD! Yay! I don't know what to say about the songs...they're just so meaningful. My favorites are Broken Sonnet(pa rin), Here Tonight(although hindi ata si Champ yung kumanta?) and Blue Sky.

"Still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you..."
T_T

Actually the title doesn't have anything to do with what I'm going to blab about today...
I hate CHEMISTRY. Hate it. Despise it. Abhor it. It's only July and I already hate it. Jesus help me. I never thought that I'd long for Sir Pekto's(not his real name of course) hoarse and soft voice. I want to be a 2nd year student again. I want to be back in good ol' St. Augustine. I want to see Ms. Jen again. Why do things change when we don't want them to? Why do people change? Why do people leave? Why couldn't life cooperate with us? I wish life could be like the movies. A problem in the beginning, then after an hour and a half or so, everything will be all right.
But as always, you can only complain and complain but nothing will change.

Skipped school today 'cause:
1. I'm freakin' exhausted
2. I need sleep after going to a 2-day training for KNN
3. I've got a cold like everyone else
4. My head feels like someone's hitting it with a shovel
5. That's just about it...

But on the bright side, I finished the deadly, bloody(kidding) training for KNN. It was fun! I get to exchange e-mail addresses and cell numbers with the other new reporters. But, before a story can be aired on TV, it will undergo a looooooooooooong process that is guaranteed to make my nose bleed. First, we have to submit a story proposal(which has to be literally perfect), then pre-production, shoot, transcribing and shotlisting, scriptwriting(I didn't know why I was even excited about this one), submission of first draft, additional shoot, submission of second draft and finally, voicing the script. Honestly, it's like volunteering to fight the terrorists in Iraq! But anyway, I think it will help me become a better person(naks!), I want to be able to voice out my thoughts and opinions even more and improve my writing skills(because I noticed it has gone away and left me here miserably...my fault, actually). And I was thinking of joining the Junior Inquirer. This will make up for my not having a club in school. But I'd rather join activities outside the school because when I join activities in school, the same people who have been OLPSians since forever for more than ten years(most of them) will get to read and appreciate(ehem-ehem) what I've done. So even if I wasn't able to join OLPSian Times this year,(actually, I blame my laziness, I wasn't in the mood to write that afternoon) if ever I can be a writer for Junior Inquirer, mas sikat di ba? *Wink wink*.
So...pushing writing aside, I finally bought Mayonnaise's CD yesterday. And it deserves a thumbs-up! I already have my favorites: Bakit Part 2 and Pink White Blue. And, yet again, they're dedicated to...uhm...hehe...
And by the way, I don't think I'll let God bless McDonald's anymore. Because...I can't believe I saw him...there! I don't know why I can't muster up the courage to look at his face! Why can't I? Why did I look down? I don't know why I felt so embarassed that time. I mean, he couldn't possibly have known that I was so concerned for him last Friday night. That it was him I was thinking of when I'm in the car on the way to a birthday party in QC. That I felt like crying when someone sung The Same Ground(I know, corny ko!) in the party. All because I was thinking of him! WHY AM I ALWAYS THINKING OF HIM?!?!

YES! I saw him! At McDonald's! God bless McDonald's! I'm so giggly and happy and all! He snapped his fingers in front of me! Yeah I know that is not so nakakakilig unlike a "Hi" accompanied with a cute "to-die-for" smile but, at least he noticed me. And he knows I exist! But he lost some weight and I think he looks cuter before but on the bright side, I saw him after 10 years!(Haha exag) So to celebrate this day, here's a song for you. Bagay na bagay 'tong song na 'to sa 'yo!

"Una"
-Sponge Cola

Muli namang umihip sa akin
Ang hangin ng pag-iisa
Liwanag kang dagling sumilaw sa 'king
Mga mata

Linilingon, sinusundan
Dumadalas ang minsan
Ika'y nariyan, abot tanaw
Kahit walang dahilan

CHORUS:
(Maiiwasan ba?)
Ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(Maiiwasan ba?)
Ngayo'y lilipas nang hindi kita nasisilayan
Nagkamali sa 'yo
Nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(Maiiwasan ba?)
Lalong mahulog sa iyo

Walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong nilikha
Putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala
Sa pag-aakit
At 'di paglapit
Nananalangin at umaasa

(CHORUS)

---For you, Tunog, only for you...

And by the way, uhm, You-Know-Who(Lord Voldemort??) is sick. 37.6. He's been sick for two days according to what Jam heard. Well, uhm, so? I mean, I'm not concerned!
But I am.
Haha. Labo.