Days sauntered past before my eyes
As if mocking me
When another hope like a fag dies
Would somebody take me, complete me?

Would this be another tainted moment?
Sparks and sunshine all around
And then sadness and darkness nodded in agreement
That their ugly faces will surround
This fairy tale I'm beginning
And like wicked villains came to ruin it all
I'm no princess soaring and dancing
For when I try to fly I am pulled down to fall

Sometimes it seems as if life is anyhting but a dream
Where unidentified objects swirl around and you swim
Among the nothingness and the loneliness
And when you wake up you were in another dream
Forced to move on, do the meaningless
Things we can't quite understand
Like we cry and worship the thing we call 'love'
We watch others who think they have it
And they go about flying like a dove

At times fate is against me
I then began to wonder if I'm a mere accident
When I remember an incident
That brings tears of sorrow to my eyes
Am I really meant to cry endlessly?
Are all things made to be against me?

Every night as I close my eyes
I hope they will never open again
For when it does, all I see are endless lies
Never-ending tragedies, for never does the sun rise
And I see people wasting their time praying for tranquility
But it seems as if I'm never gonna break free
From this cruel world and the corrupt souls in it
And if tomorrow I shall die then so be it
Being banished from this world is the only answer
Stronger than any prayer
And death is when I finally wake up
From the long nightmare that is life

Written: Oct. 19, 2004

---read if you're feeling suicidal:P---