...where secrets are sold and roses unfold...

Look at all the lonely people

2007-11-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

Meh pasok na bukas!
Huhuhuhu...
I'll be waking up at 4 freaking 30 in the morning again!
*sobs*
I feel soooooooooooo miserable.
As in.
You know, I wouldn't be so sad if it weren't for MATH!
Yes, we're having College Algebra this sem and you know...numbers and I aren't exactly on good terms since like, forever....so...
Math makes me sad.
It really does.
:-(

Unfortunate is my middle name...I guess

2007-10-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

I feel like a total mess.
Well, there's a lot going on in my head today after I got home at 8 in the morning a while ago. And then I slept 'til noon and that's when I started feeling depressed.
Last night was just a disaster, and it was supposed to be fun.
So I feel frustrated. Howard disappointed me last night so we fought, and made up.It's just that, I don't want our relationship to be a case of "You and me against the world". And then a really close friend of mine did something really...unethical? I just don't know what to do and I can't understand why he has to do that.
And then there's another feeling that's seems to be eating up my insides causing me to feel almost sick. You know that terrible feeling where you feel that you are unloved; that even if something bad happens to you, say, you are murdered on a dark alley and still your so-called friends couldn't care less or give a shit or may not even attend your wake. I don't know why but I'm guessing that this could be possible since my name was left out of a group message. I wonder why it was even sent to me in the first place when my name isn't even in there. So I guess what I'll just do is forget I was even there last night.
Erase, erase. I wasn't in that "REUNION".
And then I feel like a karma victim. You see, yesterday I went to school to get my clearance and enroll and I avoided someone because I am annoyed by her. And yes, I am aware that it was a mean thing to do since it was so obvious that I am avoiding her but I also feel that it's the right thing to do, in a way. Better that than to pretend I still like her. But I have reason to hate her. Hate is a strong feeling, yes. It is also inevitable. In this life, we come across people who are so hateful like a bottle of poison or a group of nasty, skanky bitches. So I really cannot stop not liking her.
I cannot help thinking that my meanness caused the disastrous night.
But whatever.
There's no stopping sucky days and nights from happening.
However, there's this tiny little bit of silver lining in that suckfest of a night. I get to be with Howard and he said sorry and admitted that he was the wrong one for being KJ. And I love him for that. There is nothing I can do about the impressions he had made but whatever. He stated his point for being like that so I listened and understood him. I'm not gonna change my mind about him.

-

Sorry for this muddled, confused post. I was hoping that by writing my feelings down, some of their weight may be lifted from me.
Let's just hope I'm right.

A Series of Unfortunate Events can happen to anyone...

2007-10-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

So.
I'm done with all 13 books of the A Series of Unfortunate Events series. Like with Harry Potter, reading the last chapter, the last few words, made me...sad. Reading a book series could do that to you. It's like saying good-bye to someone that has been your constant companion.
When I first saw these books, I thought they were merely children's books, you know, with really predictable endings and a shallow plot. I don't know what made me buy the first six books (in paperback) on a book fair about two years ago. I thought that the series only consists of those six books but I was shocked that it has actually 13! And the remaining seven aren't available in paperback anymore so I told myself that there's no way I could finish and collect all 13. But that was impossible since I got so hooked and each book contains mystery sfter mystery so I couldn't see how I can stop. So yeah, I collected all 13, better that than sleepless nights. OK, exaggeration...
And now I'm finally done and I guess I could say that there's more to the book than meets the eye. Snicket's style is so unique. There are parts wherein I'm snickering and there also parts wherein the words made me just stop and think for a while. I wanted to highlight those words in orange ink that glows. But I didn't of course. It's just that, there's truth to those descriptions of feelings that we encounter everyday during the course of our lives. Lemony Snicket was able to describe them, along with things like fate, miracles, darkness, etc. in a totally different way. And what could be cooler than that, huh?

Here are some quotes taken from the books which either threw me into a fit of giggles, causing my family members to threaten me with a straitjacket or threw me into a "pensive mood", a phrase which here means "closed the book for a while and stared into space, thinking how a remarkable writer Lemony Snicket is for writing those remarkable things." ;-D

"The moral of 'The Three Bears,' for instance, is 'Never break into someone else's house." The moral of "Snow White" is "Never eat apples." The moral of World War One is "Never assassinate Archduke Ferdinand."

-from Book the Fourth: The Miserable Mill

"Assumptions are dangerous things to make, and like all dangerous things to make--bombs for instance, or strawberry shortcake--if you make even the tiniest mistake you can find yourself in terrible trouble."

-from Book the Fifth: The Austere Academy

"Miracles are like meatballs because nobody knows what they are made of, where they came from or how often they should appear."

-from Book the Ninth: The Carnivorous Carnival

"But the sad truth is that the truth is sad, and what you want does not matter. A series of unfortunate events can happen to anyone, no matter what they want."

-from Book the Ninth: The Carnivorous Carnival

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like."

-from Book the Tenth: The Slippey Slope

"These are dark days, as dark as a crow flying through a pitch black night."

-from Book the Twelfth: The Penultimate Peril

"The world is a wicked place."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

"Of course I'm trying to trick you! That's the way of the world, Baudelaires. Everyone runs around with their secrets and their schemes, trying to outwit everyone else."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

"Perhaps if we saw what was ahead of us, and glimpsed the crimes, follies, and misfortunes that would befall us later on, we would all stay in our mother's wombs, and there would be nobody in the world but a great number of very fat, very irritated women."

-from Book the Thirteenth: The End

Shine!

2007-10-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

I enjoyed Stardust.
Although of course, there are differences between the movie and the book.
I'm too lazy to write today and I just wanted to update and I know I'm not good in writing reviews so I'm gonna stop right there.

And oh, did you know that Michelle Pfeiffer is already 49 YEARS OLD!?
Yes, she is and she still looks like this:

I think she may have gotten Yvaine's heart, after all.

The stripper pole was great kaya...

2007-10-08T13:30:00.000+08:00

Britney reminds me of my childhood, when Westlife is my Panic! at the Disco and Caroline Keene (Nancy Drew) is my Neil Gaiman.
Everybody changes. That's Britney now. She can't be that sweet-faced schoolgirl again. Ika nga ni Francis Bacon, "That which is past is gone and irrevocable." Kumbaga, nagawa na niya lahat un eh. She has been the cute top-selling popstar and now she's a trainwreck, yet still highly paid.
She's only a shadow of her former self. BUT, it doesn't mean that she couldn't be the great peformer she once was. If she could only fix her life and herself and rehearse well she could get another chance and give her fans the comeback they're looking for. But again, we can't expect her to be like her "Baby One More Time", "Sometimes" and "Born To Make You Happy" self again. We have to accept a new, different Britney.

...sans the stripper poles and ugly wigs, I hope.

(see...I told you I'm addicted to celebrity gossip blogs)

I'm so addicted to celebrity gossip blogs...can someone help me?

2007-09-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

Well, well, well. What do you know?
It's the last day of September already and evrything's still effed up.
Well, not everything. There are some good things that happened between 9/03 (which was the day of my last update) and today. But I still haven't got my wish.
I think the gods are conspiring against me.
What am I talking about?
Nothing. I'm on meth.
JOKING, of course.

Well, I just decided to post to tell you guys that inspiration comes when you least expect it. I have written two poems again, not that they're good but I'm just telling. I guess I'm back on the poem-writing thing. Nothing, just so you know...as if you care. But I hope you do.
*wink*

Inspayerd

2007-09-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

Well I was just lying down, tired after making sulong2 in the pollution of Manila, when a sudden wave of inspiration struck me! So I wrote a short story...and actually finished it! Yay!

Thanks to this guy...

Yeehee!
Nagppractice xa ng drums, obvious naman di ba...wah! puro side-view nga lang...
Mwah! Inspiratiooooooooon....
Pagbigyan nyo na ko, minsan lang ako mag-ganto ganto noh...

There must be something wrong with me...I'M BEING NERDY and all that...

2007-08-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

Last week I heard this news that a male student from CSB offed himself by jumping from a building. Weeks before this, another CSB student, a Korean girl, killed herself also by jumping from a building.
I learned on Tuesday that the guy who committed suicide is someone that I know. But we're not close. I'm not even sure if he knows me. But you know, when you hear of someone dying, it might not have an effect on you if you don't know the person. But if you do know the person, even if you're not of kin or you don't share some close-ness or a special bond or whatever, in a way you get affected. I don't know with others but it certainly does so for me. Last last summer our next-door neighbor passed away and I was affected but I didn't feel bereaved. It's just something I can't explain. When I heard the news, I felt sad in a way.
So I thought about suicide, but not doing it of course!
SUICIDE.
According to Wikipedia, Views on suicide have been influenced by cultural views on existential themes such as religion, honor, and the meaning of life. Most Western and Asian religions—the Abrahamic religions, Buddhism, Hinduism—consider suicide a dishonorable act; in the West it was regarded as a serious crime and offense against God due to religious belief in the sanctity of life.
They say that when your life ended through suicide, you will go straight to hell. No judgement, no anything.
Of course we all know the usual reasons for suicide: depression, stress, mental disorders etc.
This dude, Emile Durkheim developed a theory about it. According to him, The rapid change in society due to increasing division of labor thus produces a state of confusion with regard to norms and increasing impersonality in social life, leading eventually to relative normlessness, i.e. the breakdown of social norms regulating behavior; Durkheim labels this state anomie. From a state of anomie come all forms of deviant behavior, most notably suicide.
So it must be that those suicidal people were deeply affected with the continuous changes in society that they lost their values, suffered from some kind of "social disorder" and it eventually led to suicide. That is my understanding of the theory.

But...anywaaaaaaaaaaaaay....
I'm gonna stop referring to the things (and the people) I learned in my Sociology class. People might start thinking I'm smart (well I'm not).
For me, we each have our own views. We see life in different perspectives. That's why we have pessimists and optimists.
For instance, me and my family are in deep shit right now. Ok, I'm exaggerating. But we're having a major problem right now. And I'm constantly under pressure and stress because of studying. Things are changing fast around me that I'm constantly struggling to keep up. There are times when I feel lonely and hopeless, but I didn't think of slitting my wrists or overdosing on pills. And it's most likely that their problems are nothing compared to my situation right now.
But they chose to end it all.
Maybe suicidal people are pessimists, only worst. Maybe, for them, Life is a struggle and its end is dark, as suggested in the lyrics of the Anglo-Saxon in their lais.
Maybe for them, life is not a challenge, and surrendering is the best thing to do. Yes, you can say that they're weak. But it's the way they view life.
But we can't blame them. They're under pressure. Their misery is stronger than their determination to stay alive and keep on fighting.
It might seem that I understand suicidal people. But all of those are just what I think. I mean, I'm not an academic, it's just my understanding of them.

But I was just thinking (since I still have a Dead Poets Society hang-over),
what if those people who committed suicide stood on desks and tried to see the world in a different way and their problems on a different light, would they have gone on a little bit longer...or would they haven't gone on at all?

Literature Ravings

2007-08-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

When my dad told me that I couldn't enroll in DLSU, I really took it the hard way. As in, inayakan ko talaga siya 'cause I wanted to study European Studies. But when I know I had no other choice left but to accept that I am going to be a Thomasian, I thought about shifting...to Biology (it's entirely the fault of Dr. House, he inspired me and I thought I wanted to be a doctor then). Literature was my first choice. But at the time when I wrote it down on the application form, I was thinking about what interests me the most. And that's it. Literature. Books, English, writing. And since there's no Creative Writing, I chose Literature.
So why did I think of shifting?
Because during that time, I was thinking of the future. Biology is a BS course, and we all know that BS courses spell B-I-G B-U-C-K-S. While European Studies can land me a job in an embassy, it can take me to countries in Europe and to other wonderful jobs if I study hard, and that's why I was so disappointed then.
I was thinking about the money.
And why shouldn't I? I'm the eldest and I know that there will come a time when my parents are gonna rely on me to shoulder the family expenses because they're gonna be too old to work.
So going back to Literature, I am well aware of those things that people say, Na wala akong mapapala sa Lit., Mahirap maghanap ng trabaho, etc. etc. blah blah yadda yadda.
Personally, I believe that Literature is out-of-place in this country. Few take up Lit. because this is a third world country, it's all about surviving. People have to work hard and persevere in order to do so. So they take up Nursing, Engineering...careers that could take them abroad, careers that could enable them to make millions.
Whereas, Literature cannot.
That's what people think.
Ok, so I've written quite a lot already so I'm gonna go straight to my point now.
We watched The Dead Poets Society during our Lit. 201 class a while ago. And it is so good that I thought to myself, Why haven't I watched it before? How could I have NOT thought of watching it? It was so brilliant.
So after the movie, it's official: I love my course. I mean, this is where I belong. I don't want to take up Biology and be an endocrinologist (like House) just for the sake of making lots of money. Sure, I have plenty of money, but if I'm not happy in what I'm doing, then never mind. There's also a good chance that I won't be able to finish the course if that is the case.
Our Lit. 101 professor, Ralph Semino Galan, who first took up Chemical Engineering (but then of course he didn't like it) before finally shifting to Literature, said on our first meeting that he'd "rather be a poor, literary person than a rich, mediocre engineer".
From now on, I'm not gonna mind the things that people say. For me, I can find a job and make lots of money as a degree-holder in Literature if I put my heart into it and if it's what I want. Besides, I don't think I would want to look at the world with a scientist's eye, observing the scientific things conatined in it and giving scientific explanations of why and how things work. Rather, I'd like to view it as it is: with all its beauty or lack thereof. In Dead Poets Society, the character of Robin Williams, John Keating said, "...Medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for."
Exactly.
Scientists devote their lives in explaining, studying and figuring things out . Writers/poets, on the other hand, observe and appreciate, and then put them into words.

Alanis Morissette's own rendition of My Humps. LMAO on this one.

2007-08-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

Nice. Her voice made the song sound like it's a cleverly-written one.

By the way, did you know that in the gay lingo, instead of saying ulan, you say JULANIS MORISSETTE.
Yeah.

Prelims was cancelled today because it's raining.....heat and sunshine outside. And we've only got one test left. Pfft.

Looking back can be painful

2007-08-09T17:22:00.000+08:00

I stayed up 'til 1 in the morning a while ago, reading my old posts in my archives.
I could say that A LOT has changed. Those were the happy times, I guess. Sure, some of my posts back then also has the same life-is-against-me-will-anything-good-happen-to-me drama that you can also find in my recent posts. But I know that I was HAPPY then.
You know, carefree. Not a care for the world.
I had problems then. But they were all about school; how I can't understand a thing in Math, how to deal with a Physics teacher who's out to get me, how I can manage to do the pile of projects that my teachers are giving us, those kinds of things.
I was 16 then, and 15.
Happy times.
Everything's changed now.
Now, I truly understand that nothing in this world is permanent. Things and people come, and they also go.
Back in those days, my family and I would always go malling every weekend, we'd just shop and watch movies and eat on fine dining restaurants.
I was so maluho then. As in. I'd just ask Dad for something, a book, an original CD, new clothes, a new pair of havs, a new watch, an Ipod, and I'd get it.
It's really hard now that everything's changed. Well, let's just say that we can't afford to be maluho anymore.
Last night, it pained me to see how I lived what I like to call "my old life". I'd do anything to live that way again. I can get away with anything, being so young and worry-free.
I know that I'm turning 18 soon and that I'll have to be grown-up. But, I'm still 17 now and in this situation we're in, my parents need me to be grown-up. I decided to just look stoic in front of my mom and my brother and my other relatives, but, whenever I'm alone with just my thoughts, I can't help but worry and think and miss the old times.
And I'm not yet prepared to grow up. In fact, it scares me. People will expect you to do everything on your own-and to do them right. Whereas if you're young and under 18, they'd forgive you, seeing that you're only A KID.
I guess I should just avoid looking at those archives.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. No point dwelling in the past, gotta keep moving forward.
It just never occured to me that looking back at those posts would make me feel this way.
Nevertheless, I'm NOT gonna remove my archives.
If everything turned out fine, I'd be able to look back at this post and hope that me and my family will never be caught in a situation like this ever again.

Of poetry and slang words

2007-08-08T18:04:00.000+08:00

When I was in grade six, I had this brown notebook on which were written poems I made myself.
I have no idea where it is now.
I remember how my classmates marvelled over my poems. By the way, they were mostly about la-la-la-la-LOVE. The never-ending...
'Cause you see, I had crushes then. I mean like, serious crushes. Whatever the hell THAT means.
So anyhoo, I also wrote about how life sucks, yadda yadda, blah blah blah.
I wrote poems until I 2004.
Then after that I stopped.
I just lost the will, I guess.
I made a futile attempt when I was in 3rd year but...I stopped on the 2nd verse because it's crap. I myself had no idea what it's about or where it's going.
I haven't tried to make one since.
I just made this post because I found out that some of my classmates write poems. It's just that, I don't feel like I belong in my Literature class if I don't have that hobby of writing poems.
But I'm planning on going back to writing. But it's not because my classmates are doing it, but because of the shit that's been happening to me and my family lately.
And people tend to write good poems while they're sad, right?
So in my case, I'm on the verge of...I don't know, committing suicide.
Everything's so not right.
I don't know what to do anymore.
*sob*

I'm being so effing emo.
But really, my life's so fucking messed-up right now that it amazes me how I can still laugh...

let alone LIVE.

P.S.
Don't worry, I'm really, really not suicidal.
So what I'm gonna do is study HARD and make myself filthy rich so that I can get back to the people that's making me feel this way.
BWAHAHAHAHA!
You just wait, you horrible, lying, advantageous...
FUCKTARDS.
I don't know, this word's been playing in my head for quite some time now. It's kinda cool, isn't it?

Breathe in. Breathe out. Relax. HAAY...

2007-08-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

So I've been tamad to update.
I need a break.
And the prelims haven't even started yet.
So what happened to me?
Well, I've finished Deathly Hallows weeks ago.
Snape died.
I was shocked. As in, after reading about his demise, I put the book down and I just stared into space. It was HOURS after I resumed reading.
So many characters died. It was a killing fest. I thought Rowling said only two important characters are gonna die.
Lupin, Tonks, Fred. TSK TSK.
My two favorite characters, Snape and Tonks, were finished off.
It's so sad.
And I'm so stressed. Frazzled. Exhausted. FED UP.
I'm cramming for this paper in Sociology that's due on Friday already.
Everything's just not right.
And my blog is a dead cell. No new tags. Not updated often.
Shutdown ko na?
Yuck Eco eh noh.
Nobody reads it anyway.

All good things come to an end

2007-07-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

In a few hours, the last book of the Harry Potter series will be released. I already reserved for a copy and I just can't wait to get it!
Actually, what I feel about the last book is a mixture of excitement and sadness. Excitement because, well, I always feel that way everytime an HP book is released. But honestly, in all the seven books, this is the one I feel excited about most. It has a lot of loose ends and I got a lot of hanging questions. I'm just really itching to know if the enigmatic Severus Snape is really on Voldemort's side all along 'cause Dumbledore really, really did trust him. My guess: Snape killed Dumbledore on the headmaster's request. Dumbledore's pleads may not mean that he's begging Snape NOT to kill him but to kill him. I don't know, it's just a guess. On a 2006 interview, J.K. Rowling stated: "One character got a reprieve, but I have to say two die that I didn't intend to die...A price has to be paid. We are dealing with pure evil...They go for the main characters...well, I do". And I think that the two important characters who's gonna die are Hermione and Ron. Again, a guess. And again according to Rowling, "Some non-magical character will perform magic late in life under desperate circumstances. However, Petunia will not be the one to perform magic." Well then, if it's not Aunt Petunia, then it's gotta be Argus Filch, the Caretaker, since he is a Squib and he can't perform any magic at all. Or it can also be Mrs. Figg, who's also a Squib.
Also from Rowling, "Ginny Weasley is quite powerful, that we have seen a taste of that in the past, and we will see it again." I just remembered the fifth movie, it showed Ginny performing spells quite powerfully than the rest of the members of the D.A. Maybe it's a foreshadowing of what will happen in the last book.
But I'll just wait and see if my guesses are correct, shall I?
Now, the reason why I also feel sad in a way about the last book. Well, all good things come to an end. After Deathly Hallows, I wouldn't have anything to look forward to anymore. Well, there's the movies, but the books are better. Way, way better.
It's just that, I can't believe Harry Potter is ending tomorrow. Flashback to the year 2000, when I bought my first, and actually, 2nd copy of Harry Potter. I bought books 1 and 2 at the same time. I was ten years old then. Still a little kid. And, still little until now, nothing changed. HEHE. I followed the series religiously every time a book comes out. And I can say that I have grown up alongside Harry. I was witness(well, not literally) to how he started out as a young kid with unruly jet-black hair and glasses who had no idea about his true identity. I have followed him in every battle, every scrutiny, every pain (whether it be emotional or physical), every dark moments and every happy moments. I have also witnessed how he grew up as a wizard and how he established an excellent affinity in the D.A.D.A. subject. I observed how, as Harry grew up in every book, the plot becomes darker and the subject matter of the story becomes apparent, that is, death.
In a few hours, the 7th and final book of the acclaimed series that won the hearts of millions of readers worldwide will be released. In a few hours, I'm gonna say goodbye to a story I have been reading for 7 years, a story I grew up with, a story that I have, and always will, treasure forever.

Yan ang hirap pag fanatic din ng book eh, kino-compare ung book at movie...

2007-07-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Saw Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix a while ago. Well, it was good although I still liked the 4th movie better. It's just that the Ron and Dumbledore in the book are way, way different from the ones I saw in the film. It looks like Ron is not in the mood for anything at all and Dumbledore is not the calm, great wizard. In the scene following the one when he allowed Trelawney to stay at Hogwarts after Umbridge sacked her, he turned and while walking back towards the door which he came from, he snapped at the students, "Don't you have some studying to do!"
DUH.
The real Dumbledore wouldn't do that. Well, the new Dumbledore really didn't appeal to me much since I first saw him. I think Richard Harris makes a much better Dumbledore.
Another disappointment in the film is that after Sirius died, Harry is like, dedma lang. Parang, okay, my godfather the only family I have, had just been murdered. I was actually expecting the scene in the book wherein Harry talked to Nearly Headless Nick and asked him whether there is a way to make Sirius go back as a ghost. I think it would've showed how deeply saddened, heratbroken and desperate Harry was over the death of Sirius.
I didn't get to see much of Tonks, which is one of my favorite characters in Book 5.

Natalie Tena is pretty. Para nga nyang tatay si Lupin...nevertheless, I can't wait to see them on the 6th movie!

And I very much liked the performance of Evanna Lynch as Luna Lovegood. I thought she was perfect, the dreamy voice, the "loony" attitude and the look in which it seems as if she just walked in a place by accident.

quite good considering she's new

And of course, after reading books 5 and 6, I now say that Snape is my favorite character. I don't know, it's just really hard to tell which side he is on. But I just love everything about him: his black, billowing cloak, his greasy, curtain-like hair and his choice of words. Exceptional.
As for Alan Rickman, I now have an answer if ever I'm gonna be asked who my favorite actor is. I think he gave Snape's character really good justice.

If I become an international star (yuck sabay ganun eh noh), I'm gonna BEG to have a movie with Alan Rickman.

So all in all, I give the movie an A. In the O.W.L.S., it means 'Acceptable'. I can't wait for the 6th movie, though. It better be an O, or 'Outstanding', what's with Snape playing a crucial part there.

Helpful

2007-07-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

HAHA.
Bwiset!
Kala ko kung anong technique...

Nothing much, oh I'm sorry, NOTHING to blog about...

2007-07-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

Not in the mood to write about...well, stuff. But I just wanted to make an entry.

Me and L.S.
Guess where...

Stupeed!

2007-07-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

My 1100 SUN cell phone fell off my pocket a while ago. Needless to say, no more other phone. At least I still got my Ericsson but I was having so much fun using SUN!
Man!
I'm so stupid. How can I not have checked my pocket while goind down the fx like I used to? I only checked it AFTER i had gone down.
Stupid stupid stupid LEA.
From now on, I'm going to be alert.

...like a dog.

2007-06-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

Napakaiyakin ko talaga.

Of NFFs and nostalgia on the LRT.

2007-06-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

I wasn't able to update during the first three days of class. I have a long commute and it's SOOO exhausting. My insomnia days are over. I'd sleep a little after I get home and early at night. Then I wake up at 4:30 AM! WAH! So early, I know. I'll just have to get used to it.
So I'm taking up AB Literature at the University of Santo Tomas. And I have to wear a uniform, much to my utter dismay...(I guess no more Havaianas for me! huhu!) Anyway, when I got to the classroom Wednesday morning last week (panting and sweating and in desperate need of water), the classroom was already nearly full. I was surprised because I thought that there's only gonna be like, 10 of us. AND there were guys! As in, REAL 100% masculine! But none of them are cute. Except maybe one of the Korean dudes. His name is Lee-something but he has an English translation for his name and he asked us to call him "Tom". So Tom lives in Masinag, and that's also in Antipolo! Weehee! I talked to him last Thursday that's why I know that. I told him that I also live in Antipolo and he asked me where in Antipolo and I said near the Cathedral but I don't think he understood me. Oh well. And then when we (we as in me and my NFFs, hehe) were walking towards the Publishing House, we saw him with our two other blockmates who were also Korean. I saw him wave shyly in our direction so I waved and smiled back. HAHA! Lumalandi? But I think he and another one of my Korean blockmate (her name's Lee Jin-Hye chuva chuva and the translation's Diana) are gonna end up together. Syempre sila nagkakaintindihan , di ba? Sila sila mga Koreano nag-uusap dun. HAHA. Ang cute nga eh.
I didn't do our first homework in Geography. I'm so tamad.
I miss El Pauli. I always see my classmates and my other batchmates around in the LRT station, sa meh sakayan ng FX sa bayan, in UST...everywhere! There was this one time when I saw Rodolfo at the LRT station and I thought of my classroom and my teachers and how me and Kat and Tetang and Miguel wold not listen to the teachers and would just laugh all throughout the period. I was just staring that I almost missed my stop. HAHA!
Haay...
I miss high school.
I miss El Pauli.
I miss those times when I won't have to listen to the teacher because I know that I've got my books and my classmates to back me up. HAHA!
I miss rushing to the gate just in the nick of time because Mrs. Barretto's just coming out.
I miss the Tuesday mornings spent at the San Isidro teaching the kids CLE there.
I miss everything.
I even miss Mrs. San Diego. Now, I never thought I'd say that.

Well, there's no point in dwelling in the past, we gotta KEEP MOVING FORWARD.
Meet the Robinsons, hehe.
You know the feeling when you want to hate something but you can't because it feels good?
Well, that's what I feel about nostalgia.
I so love to hate it but I can't.
Ok, I don't know how to end this post.
Ok.
Bye.
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Ay wait.
Kamusta naman ang Blogger? TAGALOG?

Skiiin!

2007-06-09T14:25:00.002+08:00

Look, new skin!
Cute, eh?
I know it's got a big space on the right but I don't know how to fix it so...I'll just leave it that way. I'm not an HTML wiz.

Anyway, last night, I dreamed of a guy. Ung si pop! goes my heart. We were at the mall daw with my family and Arie (pamangkin ko na friend nya). Then I went inside The Face Shop with mom, I was looking for moisturizers then pagtingin ko nawala mom ko tas andun daw siya waiting for me. And then when we came out of the shop, nawawala daw yung iba naming kasama. So we went and looked for them...together. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Kinikilig daw ako dun sa dream then i sent a group message to my friends saying na I'm with him nga. Basta the dream felt so real. Siguro kasi realistic siya and it doesn't involve weird stuff like having classes while aboard the Anchors Away and McDo's double cheeseburger chasing me. Hehe.
Pero di ako kinikilig dun sa lalaking yun noh! Oo I saw him last Thursday and, gwapo siya but di na ko kinikilig tsaka di ko siya crush! Hmm....hindi masyado.
Haha!
Andami ko kasing crush eh!
Andaming crush-able!
WAHAHAHA!

What is it like?

2007-06-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

5 days to go 'til my first day...
...in college!
I wonder what it would be like? I hope it's going to be a memorable one. It's gonna be a different first day from all my grade school and high school first days, though, no doubt about that. No more waiting for the barkada in the waiting shed so that we can all go to school together, no more surveying the school for changes, no more scanning the corridors for new faces (of students and teachers) and no more black and white checkered uniform...but I'm still gonna be wearing a uniform, much to my dismay.
Everything's gonna be different.
I just don't know how long I'm gonna be able to adjust to these changes. You see, I'm not a good "change-coper", or whatever it's called.
I'm not yet over that where-I'm-gonna-go-to-college issue with my dad.
Good luck to me.

But on the bright side, we bought a new CPU and I love it! I'm checking on my Friendster like, everyday! That's all a person who has no life do, right? Well, life's bound to happen soon.
On the 13th!
;-D

From life's lush lips

2007-05-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

In The Holiday, Graham, the character played by Jude Law is a book editor. While out on a date with Amanda (Cameron Diaz), he mentioned that he studied Literature in school, which I took, was college. Well, I just thought that since my course is Lit., I was hoping that it would be possible for someone as hot as Jude Law to be in my class.
Which I highly doubt since FEW guys, make that hot guys study Lit. in this country. Most of them are either pursuing Engineering courses or showbiz careers.
Well, I guess I'll just hang out a lot in front of the Engineering building.
*wink*

Yo ho, yo ho a pirate's life for me

2007-05-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End is so effin' awesome I enjoyed it a great deal than Spiderman 3. Ba't kaya uso ngayon sa Hollywood ung meh scene pa after ng credits? Buti na lang I had this strong feeling na meron nga so we waited and un nga, may scene. My five-year old nephew Stephen went with us and he was already complaining "It's so matagal!" while the credits were rolling. So buti na lang talaga meron. Ay nko. We do it all the time na since X-Men: The Last Stand. We wait until after the credits.
Kasi naman pauso! Cheverlu!

Anyway, I guess summer's officially over now for me. My swimming days are over. And I've got about two weeks 'til classes start to regain my color. OK. I'll do a recap on the happenings in my uneventful and drab (well, atleast that's what I think it is) life. If I remember correctly, I've read five books this summer, Men and Cartoons, which took a long time to read because I just don't see the point on all the stories or it's just not for me, book 10 of A Series of Unfortunate Events, reread The Order of the Phoenix, then this short book I got from Doulos called Passover and then Shopaholic and Baby! It's amazing how I can read the Shopaholic books in 1-3 days only. I guess it's just so hilarious and exciting that I just couldn't put it down. I reaaly, really envy Becky Brandon (nee Bloomwood), even though she's not at all real, although who knows, there can be a handful of Beckys out there. Well, for one, she's got a PERFECT husband. And her stupidity and impulsiveness often leads to something good I mean, how many people can do that huh? Haay, I wish I could end up with someone like Luke Brandon. He is just PERFECT, and he's a stick-to-one kind of guy. He loves Becky so much. Finding a Luke Brandon is like searching for the Yamashita treasure (or something) nowadays. But then, why couldn't I end up with someone like him? All I have to do is find a job that will take me to London (yes, he has to be British too), channel my inner shopaholic (although I don't think it needs channeling anymore) and just be, I don't know...myself? HAHA.
Right.
But anyway, back to the recap. I am reading the first book of the Chronicles of Narnia. I took swimming lessons, met an NFF, and I also met this guy that I really like. I like him like him. Really. There's just so many things I want to write here but it'll take an eternity to read. But he didn't ask for my number, so it really confuses me right now. Honestly, how are you supposed to KNOW what's going on in a boy's mind? I mean, actions speak louder than words, don't they? AArgh.
Whatever.
And then to the recap again, I watched the 1st and the 2nd and the 1st six episodes of the 3rd season of House, episodes 1-17 of Heroes, the whole of Gokusen 2 and countless movies. And then I found my idea of heaven. It's a new bookstore in Galleria called Bestsellers, it's sooooo HUGE! Love it...it's kinda like the Fully Booked in Rockwell. I so looove bookstores, particularly big ones. :-D
I can't believe I'm going to college now. I'm so nervous. Plus, I'll have to wear a uniform! I hate it. Good thing I found this really lovely pair of suede flat shoes from Charles and Keith that I'll wear to school, that cheered me up a bit.
Well, join me in praying that he'll text me. I don't know. I just want HIM to text me.
Boys...*sighs*

Oh I know a regular guy. I'm actually crushing on him right now, heehee...

2007-05-17T18:51:00.000+08:00

I just watched Happily Never After. Although it wasn't at all a hit 'cause of its slight crappiness, it made me realize some things. Most girls (including myself, sometimes) dream of fairy-tale endings wherein their perfect prince comes for them in a handsome white horse and takes them away to live with him to his majestic castle where they will live happily ever after. But of course in real life the prince is that heartthrob girls are willing to die for. He comes from a really well-off family, drives a flashy sports car, has a winning smile, is a school jock, treats you to expensive restaurants...in short, he is JUST perfect.
And of course, guys like that tend to be celebrities, so you're not alone in admiring him.
In Happily Never After, Ella dreams of one day marrying Prince Charming while Rick, the prince's servant, watches her from a distance, hoping that someday, Ella's gonna change her mind about the prince and fall for him instead.
But it turns out, Mr. Prince Charming is a worthless, cowardly wimp who couldn't do things right and who couldn't save Ella from the bad guys. In the end, it was Rick who saved the WHOLE fairytale world from the villains. Well, needless to say, Ella finally realized how bad her taste was and fell in love with Rick, and they lived happily ever after.
I'm gonna go straight to my point now. The movie made me realize that the "Perfect Prince" that we are waiting for can turn out to be not-so-perfect after all. Sure, he's rich, he has a car, he's so cute, he gives you butterflies in your stomach, he's a famous celebrity/basketball player/heir to millions of dollars, but what if he turns out to be a jerk? A player? A heartbreaker? He'll only leave you in the dark, crying over your ruined Cinderella ending.
Sometimes, falling for a regular, boy-next-door kind of guy is better than falling for the seemingly-perfect-but-not-really ones. Because sometimes, that regular guy is really YOUR Prince Charming, even if he doesn't seem like it.
And then maybe, HE can give you that "Happily Ever After" ending you want.

Kundiman

2007-05-08T15:03:00.000+08:00

by Silent Sanctuary

Para kang asukal, sintamis mong magmahal
Para kang pintura, buhay ko ikaw ang nagpinta
Para kang unan, pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan
Para kang kumot, na yumayakap sa tuwing ako'y nalulungkot
Kaya't wag magtataka kung bakit ayaw kitang mawala

Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako laging umaalalay
Hindi ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw...

Di baleng maghapon pang umulan basta't ikaw ang sasandalan
Liwanag ng lumulubog na araw kay sarap pagmasdan
Lalo na kapag nasisinagan ang iyong mukha
Ayoko nang magsawa, hinding hindi magsasawa sa iyo
Kaya't wag magtataka kung bakit ayaw kitang mawala

Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako laging umaalalay
Hindi ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin...

Bahala na...
Ayoko munang magsalita
Hayaan na muna natin ang daloy ng tadhana

Kundiman tayo hanggang dulo wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako laging umaalalay
Hindi ako lalayo...

Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako laging umaalalay
Hindi ako lalayo

Dahil ang tanging panalangin
Dahil ang tanging panalangin
Ay ikaw...

Wala na kong hihingin pa

2007-04-26T16:09:00.001+08:00

Have you ever found yourself thinking of someone you don't want to think about when you hear a song? Well, that's exactly what's happening to me right now. It's not that I don't want to think about him it's just that...
Hmm...
I just don't want to think about him the way I'm thinking about him right now.
Ay basta.
It's just amazing how someone can step back into your life when you least expect them to. I mean, honestly after I met that Mr. Dreamboy (Piolo?!heehee) deep inside, I've been secretly wishing that my nephew (they're friends) would give him my number and then my phone would beep and an unregistered number will appear and it would be Mr. Dreamboy with the dreamy eyes and the killer smile. But last Monday while I was aboard an FX on the way home after accompanying Deca to UST, my phone beeped and it was an unregistered number. But it wasn't Mr. Dreamboy. It was a person that I wasn't expecting to hear from EVER. So we're now textmates and it turns out that he also likes the same song that I'm really loving right now.
Maybe that's why I feel the way I'm feeling right now while listening to that particular song.
But I don't like him anyway. Never did. Never will. We've got our own lives and we're just textmates. He's one of the reasons why my right thumb is aching right now, it's from the "textfest" I had last night.
Whew!
I KNEW I could never turn my back on Globe even when they decided to be stupid and raised the unlimited charges. I tried to by moving to SUN but I missed the unli peeps so needless to say, I've got two cell phones now.
Just sharing.
By the way, I'm a Thomasian now. I enrolled yesterday. I know, sayang ang DLSU, but my family is facing some situations right now and my Dad said he couldn't afford to send me there. At least that's what he said.
But that's not what another relative said.
Ay ewan ang gulo ng buhay ko!
Baboosh!

Pop! goes my heart

2007-04-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

Whew!Haven't updated in like, what, 35 days? Heehee.
Can't reall say I got busy. But I've been waking up early. I'm so proud of myself.
During the days of my absence (yuck), I've been/felt disappointed, frustrated, then calmed a little bit, pensive, hopeless, depressed, kilig, giddy, dreamy then a little bit contented...but after a few more thoughts eventually felt depressed again. I'm like a looney I know. So many things had happened and so many thoughts had crossed my mind.

I'm just not in the mood to tell since I know I won't remember some of them. All I can say is that I met a very, very as in totally super duper dreamy boy and whenever I hear the song Way Back Into Love and Pop! Goes My Heart I am reminded of him. That's because when I watched Music and Lyrics he's all I can think of.
Heehee.
I hope I'll see him again TOMORROW.

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

I said I wasn't gonna lose my head
But then pop! goes my heart
I wasn't gonna fall in love again but then pop! goes my heart

Of old flames and vicodin

2007-03-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated in a while. I've been doing House marathons. My dad asked me why I'm interested in that show. He said that doctors themselves are the only ones who should be interested in it so I'm like "Parang di naman..." Hehe. But the show is watchable even though I'm not (and isn't planning to be) a diagnostician, a nephrologist, an oncologist, an intensivist, a neurologist, an endocrinologist, an immunologist or in short, a doctor.
When The New York Times remarked that House is "as addictive as vicodin", they weren't LYING.

Well, I could go on and on about how HOT Dr. Chase is and how I wish that Dr. House is my father but if I do, there's a good chance that this post will never end.

So anyway, a lot happened yesterday while I'm dozing off...(almost) the whole day. I went to our class' farewell party last last day and it was overnight so I got home at around 8 AM yesterday.
There's that hostage situation and...er, that's just about it. Hehe.
Then late last night, I went online and guess who PM-ed me! Well...uhm, let's call him "Skittles"? Anyway, he said "I love you" and when someone broke your heart, I'm exaggerating...Ok, let's say hurt your feelings (that's what I felt THAT time, that is) and then suddenly say I love you out of the blue wouldn't you be pissed off? No? Well, I was. Sort of. Anyway, he asked me if he can call me because he couldn't sleep and he needs someone to talk to. And I said NO. Well, I'm sure some of you have no idea who I'm referring to here. Well, you could just ignore this or if you're nosy enough or if you have the time or something, you can check my archives.

Well, uhm...PEACE!
I will post the farewell pictures on my Multiply soon.

Graduation

2007-03-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever, we will still be
FRIENDS FOREVER

Well, I know it's cheesy or cliche and all that, but this song is THE perfect graduation song.
I will absolutely miss my section.
I really, really feel sad today even though I know that I'm still gonna see them on March 27. Well, that's what graduates are supposed to feel, right?

Anyway, today is a day full of surprises. When I got home after the graduation, some of my relatives are there and there's a cake and flowers and balloons. And then, after some of them had left, I fell asleep. My mom woke me up at five and told me I have visitors waiting outside. I was surprised when I saw Migs, Deka, Kam and Tetang. I didn't invite them because I know they have family affairs since it's graduation. Kat also arrived after. They were complete!
It's so nice.
I love my family and friends.
Thank God for them.

So, it's a HAPPY BIRTHDAY for me.
Thank you to the people who made it...that way.
XOXO

Lasts

2007-03-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

On my way to school this morning, it occured to me that it is my last tric ride to school. It made me sad. This is also the last day that I wore my school shoes.
Graduation is tomorrow naaaaaaaaa..........
I already feel sad even though I know that there's gonna be a farewell party on the 27th.
HAAAAYYYYY......
Oh well. Good luck to me and advance happy birthday to me.
Cheers!

Why do all good things come to an end?

2007-03-16T18:46:00.000+08:00

Time flies.
Seems just like yesterday. You were a part of me... Joke. CORNY. HAHA.
Well, it seemed like they all happened just yesterday. The first day of my senior year, the Tuesday mornings spent in San Isidro teaching Religion to the kids there, the field trip that sucked because of our adviser, the memorable Baguio retreat, those university-hopping we made, the movie marathons, the mallings, the practices, the gabfests (which were usually done while a teacher is busy blabbering things that are too boring and uninteresting to pay attention to ), the laughtrips, the foodtrips, Miguel impersonating teachers, the swimming/birthday parties, the shootings, cutting classes, the misunderstandings that led to petty fights, the kopyahans, the I-feel-like-i'm-gonna-throw-up feelig we get every time Sir Toby asks someone to get the index crds because we're gonna have a recitation, the "Bible Studies" (wink wink, NOT what you think) and countless other events which may seem like nothing to other people but memorable to us.
For me, this year was the most memorable of all the 11 years I spent in that school. Sure, I may have hated some teachers and our our Principal (which is, the female counterpart of Emperor Nero, I may go on but it gets meaner), but what made it memorable was the experiences, the fun we had in each other's company and knowing that we have each other's backs no matter what.
I can't imagine what would happen if I was put in another class.
Well, I'm pretty sure that in college, I'll always find myself reminiscing and looking at the pictures and videos on my cellphone.
*Sighs*
On Tuesday, I'll be graduating.
I feel sad.
When there were still classes, I remember thinking that I can't wait to graduate because I want to leave that school forever, etc etc. But now that day is nearing, I now find myself wishing that there ARE still classes.
I think...maybe I'm just scared of college and everything or, maybe I really would miss high school life. Or maybe both. But whatever. I'm gonna say goodbye nonetheless.
We always have to say good-bye in this life. It's a part of this world, of how we live. No matter how sad it may be.
Next week, after I graduate, I'm gonna have to worry about my future. You see, my path's not yet clear. I envy Tetang and Miguel, they've both got supportive parents that are willing to send them to a "GOOD" school. As in, good. Whereas mine, well let's just put it this way, my mind's all set to the school that I want to go to and to what I wanna do with my life. But my parents messed it all up.
I wish I have my own money.
Well back to the graduation thing. Honestly, I didn't feel bad at all while rushing to do all those requirements and last-minute tasks (they were the reason why I haven't updated in a while, plus the finals) for the teachers. Sure, I felt so effin' exhausted but I thought what the hell?! I'm also gonna miss it all! So, good luck to me, good luck to all of us.
Sana walang mapariwara sa atin.
God bless us all!
I love you, El Pauli!

Making the most out of the remaining days before graduation.

(I will post the other pics on my Multiply after graduation)

Shet, birthday ko na rin pala sa Tuesday, 17 na ko, tanda ko naaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Dragonfly collides with truth...

2007-02-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

Look what we caught.

AWW...someone killed it.
But it wasn't us. SWEAR.
We set it free and then we saw it again on the ground. We tried to make it fly again, but its wings have been damaged.

Free your mind, dont let me down
We''ll find a way to make it go away
I'll make it go away
(My dragonfly)

HEHE.

Screw exams!

2007-02-16T17:41:00.000+08:00

I have diagnosed myself with:
SENIORITIS
n: a condition deadly to one's grades as the carrier becomes apathetic about grades, classes, homework, basically anything connected to school.
Symptoms include: not doing any work and skipping classes.

Actually, nung 2nd quarter ko pa unang naramdaman ung mga symptoms. Fortunately, I had not received any failing marks. Yun nga lang, mas mababa compared sa mga grades ko last year.
Right now, malala ang sakit ko. Or should I say, namin?
Exam day ngayon eh. Kahapon nag-computer lang ako.
Know how I survived the tests today?
Kodigo. SHH. Hehe.
Tomorrow test namen sa Physics at Math tapos hindi ako mag-aaral kasi TINATAMAD AKO.
Sobra. As in.
Hehe.

2007-02-14T19:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!

Today was fun.

Me and the gang gave chocolates to Sir Soriano and to Sir Pacleb. We danced and sang Happy Valentine's to you..." to the tune of the Birthday song.

I also received a Toblerone.
HEEHEE.

It was like Christmas today.
The streets are full of people (most of them teenagers) with bouquets and other Valentine's Day chuva.
Valentine's this year is a far cry from the Valentine's last year.

2007-02-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday

Today was bad.
Me and Kat got busted for cutting our Accounting class and when I got back from the Comp. room, my wallet was missing.
SOMEONE STOLE MY WALLET.
I.LOST.MY.WALLET.
He could've just taken the money but my wallet. My precious wallet.

Could this day get any worse?

Today

Mrs. Causon believed him when he said that he didn't do it. Haller? Of course he wouldn't admit it. Our good (sarcasm here) adviser belieevd him because he cried. HAH. Right.
My "hunch" wouldn't go away, so I think it's really him.
There's no justice in this world.

WOW.

2007-02-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

Crystal Havaianas.
Hand embellished with Swarovski crystals.
I can only wish I own one, they're too expensive. AS IN.

Anyway, my Multiply's been resurrected.
Click HERE to see it.
If you want to, that is.

I don't want to text anymore. Stupid Globe! Hmph!

2007-02-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

Brr.

Say it ain't so I will not go

2007-01-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

I wish I have a personality like Nicole Ritchie's.
So what if she's bad-mouthed and a war freak?
LOVES IT.

But if I do get her personality, I hope I won't have to get her frail, rail-thin body. Plus, there's no way that I will use drugs like her.

Drugs are gross.

And so is the smell of old people.
I wonder why some of them smell like garden soil...

2007-01-23T18:00:00.000+08:00

Dad surprised me last night with his pasalubong.

It's the Limited Edition Chinese New Year's watch from Swatch! I saw it in the newspaper last Sunday. I just didn't think that he'd buy it for me so soon.

And look, it comes with a golden piggy bank.

wakekek...

Iskool Bukol

2007-01-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well, as I expected, it was a BORING first week back. In fact, I almost died of boredom if it weren't for my friends and classmates and their (corny) jokes. Or rather, OUR jokes. Thanks especially to Migoy for his daily dose of jokes, impersonations (this week, it was Sugar) and whatnot.
Love you guys!

watches, anyone?

PEEEAAAAACCCCCCEEEEEEEE.......

camera shy...

I've seen Eragon.
Cute, cute Eragon.
HOT, HOT, HOT Eragon.
Favorite part?
When Eragon was standing in a room WITHOUT a shirt on.
Did I mention he was HOT, HOT, HOT?

Standing in the lightfield

2007-01-10T18:18:00.000+08:00

I recieved the letter from UST today.
I passed!
But I failed ACET...huhu...
Honestly I don't know if I'll celebrate ('cause I got accepted in 2 out of the 5 schools I took a test in) or grieve ('cause yun nga for the ACET).
I'll wait for the other two exam results. But I know I won't be keeping my fingers crossed for the UPCAT result 'cause I know I don't stand a chance against the thousands of bright, brilliant, intelligent, gifted students who took it.
Everyone's telling me to opt for DLSU 'cause ang ganda ng course na na-pass ko dun and it's a nice school, etc. etc. but I'm kinda afraid to take the MRT because it's TOO congested (unlike the LRT) and when I went to CSB last Jan.2 with Miguel, Alvin and Jam, i don't know kung paano iiinsert yung card kasi walang arrow. HEHE.
But I think I might also go to UST 'cause I just learned that Kean (of Callalily) goes there.
HEEHEE.
Des told me may tumalo na daw kay Yael pero sabi ko "Hindi eh, mas matimbang pa rin si Yael."
Which reminded me...huhuhu...ACET....
Ba't kasi hindi ako pinanganak na matalino...o masipag man lang?
Well, I knew from the very start that I'm not gonna get in but I can't help but feel disappointed.
Huhuhuhu.
But again, there's DLSU...and UST...
and Australia.
:-|

At least...

2007-01-04T10:00:00.000+08:00

I passed the DLSU College Entrance Test. Yey! At least may school na ko.

I hate it.
My lips are chapping incessantly. I don't know why.
It's not so cold anymore so it can't be windburn.
I hate it. AARGH!!!!!!

2007-01-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

uh, a piggy bank used here as a candy container

it's the piggie cell phone holder again!

HAPPY YEAR OF THE PIG!
...and that's me. Joke.

PFFT. Boring.

2006-12-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

I just stayed at home all day.
At anong gnagawa ng taong walang magawa at nsa bahay lang?
Eh di...gising ng 11, eat, stay in the bath for an hour, sleep again, read and...when there's nothing left to do....pictyur2!

Finictyuran ko ang mga chinelas ko.
Look:

my first pair of havaianas...it's for trekking but I haven't tried trekking...yet(?) anyway, i looove the color...blue!!!!!yey!

havaianas top

my favorite! cartunistas!

so you might notice na meh konting pagkakaiba sa design nung 2...

di ba, di ba, di ba? cute tlga!

nice, eh?

vain feet....

newest pair, obvious ba? hehe....

Now ung mga Dupe naman...

akala nyo gnyan lng yan ka-simple?

check out d butterfly design on the side! hehe.

actually, i haven't worn these yet. EVER.

from ipanema...cute fish design...jam should have these, hahahaha

After my little chinelas shoot, I became my camwhore self...

with my brother...

taba...

isn't the cellphone holder cute?

So yan...yan ang epekto ng walang magawa...

Many times, many ways

2006-12-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

Finally! Nagkita na din kami nila Andy...

para akong sleepy samantalang si andy wide-eyed, hehe

aww.....

with stephen!!!

I think Christmas should be about forgiveness...IS about forgiveness. HE should realize that. Wasn't he at all satisfied that I, in spite of myself, for Christmas' sake, forgot "that" thing called pride and sent him a message of apology? Well, I told him that if he's still mad, he could let me know by not replying. And guess what? He didn't reply. So it's either, the network got fucked up while my SMS was making its way all the way to the North to him, or he's still really mad.
Gosh, it was just a stupid prank. Oh well, I can't blame him but really, shouldn't he have gotten over it by now?
Such an emotional wreck.

Oh well.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Prescribed pills to offset the shakes

2006-12-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Ok, Christmas Eve tomorrow. How come nobody feels the Holiday spirit anymore? *sigh*
Anyway, I had a blast at Tetang's birthday party last Thursday night...and the morning after. Hehe. AND get this: it was a swimming party. Yep, a swimming party on a December night. YEE-hah! Good thing nobody caught pneumonia or something.
But my voice got hoarse (most probably from screaming and L-ingOL) and my throat is aching so baddd it really hurts when I swallow and when I sneeze. But that didn't stop me from chewing SKittles after lunch a while ago and pigging out on pizza and garlic bread for merienda.
Yeas, as in PIG OUT. And after that, I still had my dinner. And then there's Noche Buena and Media Noche. Forget it, I AM not skinny. I have to stop trying to gain weight 'cause I. AM. SO. EFFIN'. FAT. already. You know, when I sit, my tummy looks like I spend my evenings drinking mugs and mugs and mugs, and still more mugs of beer.
UGH!

I'm gonna post the pics of the party really soon.

I haven't gotten over my addiction to But It's Better If You Do yet. It's such a great song. Panic! At The Disco is my newest favorite band! AAAAH! God, I sound like an 11-year-old girl cheering for Aaron Carter...on TRL? Nah.

Sick and sad patients on first name basis

2006-12-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, me and Tetang skipped school to buy our XMas presents. Tetang also asked me to help her shop for the outfit that she's gonna wear for our Christmas Party. We went to Megamall first and when we got there, we discovered that there was a power failure at Buliding B. Eh Blue Magic is located in that building. So...we had no choice but to shop for presents in the dark, but of course with the aid of a flashlight.
The porcelain dolls looked scary in the dark.....hahaha.
After that, we went to Galle naman where we spent an eternity looking for a top to match Tetang's skirt. And get this, di namin namalayan na hindi na kami nag-lunch! HAHA, sobrang busy.
We finished at past five then I went home alone because Tetang attended her mom's Xmas party. On my way home, dad texted saying na tuloy kami nila kuya sa Big R. Sobraaaaaaang trapik sa Ortigas grabe! Sumakit na ulo ko!
So when I finally got home at around 7, e di yun, alis na naman!
Wheew!
I was so exhausted last night that I slept 'til 11 AM today. I'm planning to do a lot of things pa naman today:

1. finish project in CLE due on Monday
2. finish reading The Giver
3. wrap presents
4. watch a movie
5.

OK, that wasn't a lot but it's already 4 in the afternoon and I haven't started on anything yet. Nakakatamad kasi eeeeeeeeeehh.......
Alright that's it. I AM the laziest person on this planet.

To the left

2006-12-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it's December already.
Only 12 days to go before Christmas.
I still can't feel the Christmas "spirit", or whatever it's called.
And I haven't bought a single Christmas present yet.

To the left, to the left.

Here's something I wrote last Monday:

Last week, Lance Corporal Daniel Smith was convicted for "raping" a 23-year-old Filipina hiding behind the pseudonym, "Nicole". I have followed the Subic Rape Case since it started last year, although not as avidly as I did on One Tree Hill. And I have my say on how the case ended. Actually,me and my friends and other people in our classroom all had the same reaction.
WE WERE DISAPPOINTED.
But I won't say why......teehee.....

And I've observed some things which I found amusing.

First, Daniel Smith has become somewhat a celebrity here. Last week, on Smith's second day at the Makati City Jail, there were a group of people which posed for a picture in front of the jail. And I was like, "Uh, okaaaaaay. Ano yan Buckingham?" I was almost expecting them to ask the jailguards if they can bring Smith out for a while so that he can pose with them. HAHAHA.

And second, guess the initial reaction of some girls when they found out that Smith is sentenced to 40 years in prison.
Tentenenenen...
---drum roll---

"Ang guwapo pa naman."

Aruu!
But yes, it's undeniably true naman, di ba? Sayang! And to think na he's only 21! Tsk tsk. Li even remarked," 40 years? E di pag nakalabas na siya di na siya guwapo nun." Me, "OO nga." Karl, at one point, said,"Ilalabas ko siya dun!" Then "Gagawin ko siyang inosente."Aruu! Still, I just found it cute that Smith, now a convicted rapist, could still sweep girls off of their feet. AXE effect? Hehe
But I was just thinking, what if Smith is ugly? As in ugly ugly? Yun bang mukhang rapist talaga? Then maybe there won't be disappointed tongue-clickings or escape plots from young girls...and gays. In short, no one will care if he's found guilty or not. Except of course those rallying groups who's of the opinion that the case is related to the Philippines' integrity...or something.

To the left, to the left.
What's with the song ba?

Please put the doctor on the phone 'cause I'm not making any sense

2006-11-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, we went to Bola's place to shoot our project in Math. We have to make a play depicting the origin of the number system. We chose Bola's place since there are lots of trees there and he also told us that there's a stream nearby. So it's a perfect place for us to shoot the "Caveman Scene". Turns out the stream wasn't nearby. We had to venture into what in my opinion is a "Green Hell". No, we didn't exactly enter a rainforest or a jungle with poisonous snakes. The place is nothing compared to the jungles of Brazil but for a hopeless slacker like me who is too lazy to get up and have some adventure, it IS a "Green Hell". I'm still itchy all over from mosquito bites and God knows what else.
But still, I'm thankful for that "accidental" adventure we had because if we didn't go there, then we wouldn't have had those incredible bonding moments.
I love you, Forpol!

FECTYURES
(last Saturday)

deka, ako, tetang, charo sa bahay pa lang nila bola

DBD.....

greeks

bago kmi mag-venture dun sa lugar na yun......biruin nyo naglakad kmi sa masusukal na daan at tumawid sa mga madudulas na bato ng naka-costume....asteg noh?

stand still, look pretty

jutarat!

donya kristeen

parang pictorial lang sa candy ah....

weh

diwata ng kagubatan

elmay, joi and danah...wow d halatang nadulas na ah

tetang and jam

des, ang saya mo.....

majo and elmay

majo and tetang

majo and me....naks parang artista c majo ah!

peachy is the best actress for her role as the "Cave Woman"...sa Oscars un ha

tetang and kat

ako at si maria makiling

des and meeeeeee

hulaan nyo anong role nya

parang demand curve......downward slope......hahahahahaha

hi!

HA-YAAAAAAAH!

maria makiling

kambal??

FECTYURES NAMAN NUNG B-DAY NI LI held last Nov. 18...

ang liwanag noh? nakakasilaw

ganda..

adonis

jam's beau...ay d n pla, cla n pla..yeeheee

Kathryn: Pabangag nang pabangag

HEHE
and moving on...

the birthday celebrant

wet look

nice...

FECTYURES NUNG B-DAY NI KARL SA MCDO...
kya lang me and the b-day celebrant aren't in any of these pics...

ay lae, kamusta yan?????

MORE FECTYURES
nakalimutan ko na kung kelan 'tong mga 'to......

BRUHA AKO!

karl and tetang...

STILL MORE FECTYURES
(taken yesterday during P.E. sport kasi namen ni des picture2)

nice teeth

old school

isn't this a lot like a lot like love? gets nyo?

ay kamusta yung ale sa likod?

pra akong c hermione sa buhok ko...bruha....oh well, it has a life of its own

---

Whew! Dami nun ah!
Buti na lang binalik na sa 'min yung card reader. Kaya pwede na kong mag-upload ng mga fectyures...AGAD!

No classes tomorrow! Good night!

Don't delay, act now...

2006-11-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

You know what?

I want to fall in love.

But there's no one to fall in love with.

Sucks, ryt?

But then...there's college. I guess I'm gonna have to wait 'til college na lang. Madami dun. It's just that...I miss that feeling. Yung para bang meh reason kang mabuhay sa mundong ito? Haha...exagg ba? Pero...parang ganun dn ung ibig kong sabihin.

Anyway, I've seen Casino Royale.

Vesper Lynd: I will be keeping my eyes on the money and off of your perfectly formed ass.

James Bond: You noticed.

Perfectly formed ass?
I couldn't agree more.

A bad-day-turned-good-day

2006-11-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes the gods bless you in the morning and curse you in the afternoon."
-Hector(Eric "Hot-ness" Bana), TROY

Wala lng, naalala ko lang. Related kasi eh. Baligtad nga lang, yung "curse" nung morning, then yung "blessing" nung afternoon. It goes like this.
This morning, I got really frustrated, mad, pissed off, lahat! That's because our "Professor Umbridge-like" (according to Kris, and I agree) CLE teacher/adviser made a new seating arrangement and separated the gang and me from each other! Sobrang bad3p ako kanina. Pakingsyet! Tapos eto yung malufet! One seat apart, pare. Apparently, she did it to minimize the noise of the class since our class, St. Paul, is the noisiest room among the fourth year sections.

So?

Nobody can stop us. It's our last year, we're just cherishing the remaining time that we have to spend as high school students. And how the fuck can we do that when we got a freakin' K.J. for a class adviser?
Here's what I think:
WE.ARE.UNCONTROLLABLE.
That's the truth.
We're not kids anymore. We don't NEED seat plans.
She should read this.
Hah.

So I was really in a bad mood this morning. But everything started to brighten up in the afternoon. I moved my chair during Trigo to sit with Gio and Jam at the back. Then when I got home, nagpa-load na ko, then I immediately registered for GLOBE UNLIMITXT for 2 days. Actually, I told myself that I would register after the exam na lang next week but I couldn't help it. Then I sent a group message which read:

G.M.: Yehey!

Then the messages started coming in one after another. Nag-text lang ako kanina. That's why I wasn't able to write my article for the OLPSian Times. But I did my Math H.W., sana lang tama siya....
And here's what completed my day...(naks!)
That "someone" texted me! Hinihintay lang pala nya text ko...so ganun yon...
HAHA.

----

Exam's on Friday na!!! SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSShit!

---Msg from Jam:
14-Nov-06 8:39 pm

JUAN: uy, ang ganda ng ipin mo ah parang seating arrangement ng forpol...(note: It's what we call our class, short for FOURTH YEAR ST. PAUL)
PEDRO: Baket naman?

JUAN: one seat apart!

HAHAHA!

Tomorrow, I'll sit beside Isma.
Bahala yang adviser namen sa seating arrangement nya!
Che!

Trophy boys, trophy wives

2006-11-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Crush ko na si Jason Statham.

HAHAHAHAHA. Yeah, seriously.

I saw The Transporter and Crank last Friday night on, you know, "Capt. Jack Sparrow DVD". Pauso eh noh?

CRANK = AYOS!

A Fever You Can't Sweat Out - highly addictive

Fall Out Boy's vox Patrick Stump and Panic's Brendon Urie sounded so alike that me and Gio had a heated debate because he thinks that Patrick is also the vocalist of Panic! At The Disco. But it's all clear to him now. Naliwanagan na siya.
Magkaboses naman kasi.
But I love them both.
Yee-hee!

Went to E.K. last night. And as usual, Anchors Away, Space Shuttle...nakakasawa na, actually. I wish they'd build a roller coaster with lots of loops and suuuuuper high drops. Like the one I saw on Amazing Race when they were in Japan. Pamatay yung mga drop!

I'm really bored and sad. Someone hasn't texted me since Thursday. He's not someone I like or anything, I just really enjoy exchanging texts with him. He doesn't know about this blog, but I can't put his name here...just in case, u never know, right?
Okay, I just don't want to.
Ang labo ko noh?
So right now I don't feel right...'cause my UNLIMITXT stopped a while ago and he hasn't texted yet.
Okay, ang babaw...

THE BLACK PARADE....yey!

2006-11-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

I now own a copy of MCR's The Black Parade. Woohoo! I bought it after we watched The Marine last Thursday. John Cena is cute, but the movie wasn't. SnoooozZzefest...hehe...
Kaya lang, when I entered Tower Records (the one in Megamall) I thought that The Black Parade wasn't released here yet since there's no SPECIAL RACK or something there for it. But then I saw them on the New Releases rack. BUT THERE WAS NO SPECIAL RACK. But Hale has one. HALE. Right.

Anyway, here's something to gush over:

Ang galing ng boses ni Gerard, todo bigay! Crush ko na din si Bob Bryar. There was this song there which, for me, is THE best in the album. It was kind of like a "love song"...except its title is I Don't Love You. But it was nice, I love it. The songs delve into topics like DEATH (of course), cancer and war.
And wait, I take it back, I love Gerard again. I saw MCR perform at the 2006 Scream Awards on Star Movies. He's still cute...haha! I AM seriously gonna find a way to get to him so that I can marry him. HAHA!

I also bought Panic! At The Disco's A Fever You Can't Sweat Out.

La lng. Just checking them out. I like their song But It's Better If You Do eh. Nakakasayaw yung mga kanta nila.

---

Nga pala, my Ipod's not broken...false alarm...hehe

---

Sembreak's over.
Back to school tomorrow.
I AM a slacker.
Know what I did during my sembreak?
Uh...go to Tiendesitas (almost) every night, watch TV (syempre), soundtrip, text, uhm...I read Anansi Boys and A Series of Unfortunate Events Book 7, The Vile Village and...procrastinate.
HAHA.
Procrastination...it's the only thing I'm good at.

Remember, remember, the 5th of November
The Gunpowder Treason and plot;
I know of no reason why Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.

Happy Halloween!

2006-10-31T15:20:00.000+08:00

Since it's Halloween and it's time for peace on earth and goodwill to all, (hehe sabi ni Ashton sa That 70's Show) I will share with you guys these photos. Hanapin nyo mga mumu dyan hehe...madali lang yan...walang daya..

boyfriend ko...haha...joke...sa tiendesitas ksma ang kuya kong...ano...bsta yun...e2 primary pic ko sa friendster eh...la lng just sharing

migoy, isma, ako

kme ulet

after ng grad pic...check it out! meh eyeliner pa ang lola mo!

with kat..tngnan nyo ung pimples ko...sa magkabilang cheek...

bored during physics...boring ung teacher eh...

ho-hum

o des, ba't ka lonesome?

nung first monthly test namen...saya ko pa noh?

pictorial sa mcdo...

with kristeen, more popularly known as "Tetang"

ako, si tetang at si jam...sa canteen...

stranded sa mcdo...

La lng yan...mga picture na naipon sa cel ko...ung iba nung 1st Quarter pa...la kasing USB fone ko eh...bulok!

I love Lemony Snicket!
But that doesn't change the fact that my Ipod is broken...again. God, what the FUCK is wrong this time?

Nothing's right, nothing's right
Everything's fucked-up
My life's a mess, might as well go get the blade and...
Kidding, I am so not suicidal
It's just that, I haven't started on any of those stupid homeworks that some of our teachers had so cruelly given to us, not realizing that, IT IS our semestral break and they HAVE to give us a break.
Some teachers are just sooo inconsiderate.
Plus, I need to write something for the school paper and I haven't started yet.
Maybe I shouldn't go back to school. It's driving me insane. Come graduation day, I will already be locked up in a mental asylum.

God, I'm constantly logging on to my Friendster account. It just shows how bored I am...with my life...and with everything else.

We're covered in lies and that's okay

2006-10-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

It's the first day of our semestral break. Went to Bola's birthday bash(?) a
while ago. I'm in a state of total confusion and frustration. You know the feeling when you just WANT to be mean to someone and you feel like saying mean things is the only way for you to tell the truth because in your situation only the truth will set you free but you just can't because that person is so kind and is a very good friend to you? Well I had that. You know, I'm still okay when he just "confessed" to me but he shouldn't have ASKED me...that question. It ruined everything. Our friendship, that is. Now I feel awkward...and confused...and...yeah, I don't feel right. Well, I can't explain it here properly...obviously.

But I'm not speaking with him.
Ever again?
No, no, no, let's hope not.

Anyway, anyway, I'm gonna talk about...other...things. Things that don't bother me. Things that make me happy.
Like Neil Gaiman's Anansi Boys. I finished it this morning in bed. And
I gotta say, it was an absatively good read. Gaiman's writing was so
effective that I found myself crushing on Spider, one of the two sons of the
spider-god Anansi. In the book, Spider was the one who got his father's "god
powers". He's cool, he's fly, he's charming, he's a smooth talker so ladies can't
resist him, he's got powers...and he always wore a black leather coat, like
Angel in Buffy. How cool is that?
You know how when you read a book you tend to visualize the characters as
movie stars or as someone you've known your whole life or as someone you
saw on the street one time and you found cute or whatever? Like when I was
in 4th grade and I was reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of
Secrets. I imagined that Harry is my crush Omar, who was in Grade 5
that time, and that I am Ginny. But apparently, Ginny's a redhead but hey, it
was MY imagination.
So anyway, for Anansi Boys, I've got Mikey Way as Fat Charlie and
Gerard Way as Spider :D But wait, that's not the reason why I have a crush on
Spider, I kinda don't like Gerard now because of what he's done to his hair.
I've got this other guy in my head whom I visualize as Spider, but I'm not sure
who he is. I mean, maybe I've seen him in a movie once as an extra or maybe
I'm yet to meet him. OOOhhhh...all I know is that he's cute.
And who is Rosie and Daisy in my great, great, great imagination? Ehem
ehem. It's truly yours. Teeheeehee. I married Mikey Way...in my imagination...
Grahame Coats is The Undertaker (yep, I have a VERY weird imagination), the
Bird Woman is Liv Tyler (with lots of make-up so that she'll look like a
Bird...Woman) and Maeve Livingstone is...hmm...some blond woman and Mrs.
Higgler and the other old ladies are...well..I just imagined them as they were
described in the book.
But I really enjoyed it. The book, not visualizing old ladies.
Astigin. When people ask me who my
crush is, I'd tell them it's Spider.
*wink*

So, another thing that makes or rather, made me happy was seeing
Matt Hardy in the flesh, although not at an intimate distance, unfortunately,
but close enough to see that he's...cute. Yep, we watched the Smackdown
Survivor Series tour last Saturday. And Sib was there and I asked him if I
could take a picture with him and so I took a picture with him and it's on my
cellphone so...yeah. LA LNG.
I can't wait to see The Marine. John Cena is sooooo effin'HOT. I don't care if he's a...RAPPER and not some
guy with a bass or some guy who drinks a lot and sings "I'm okay, I'm
okaaaaayy!" or "Don't, don't, don't get up, chichichichi (or
something) I can't see the sunshine, I'll be waiting for you baby..."
Yeehee......

And another thing that makes me happy is Jewel's new CD,Goodbye Alice
In Wonderland. The reason why I'm happy is because Jewel's her old self
again. Yep, no more dance songs. Intuition was a mistake. And I hope that from that mistake, she was able to learn that she looks (and sounds) way, way better with a guitar than she does when she's wearing short shorts and....dancing.

I can't wait to get my hands on The Black Parade.

Ayos

2006-10-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

Me and my Ipod are together again.........! Yun yon eh! AYOSSSSSSSSS! Yehey!!!!!!!!! Hip hip.....
ALright, I'm gonna stop now.

Our Filipino teacher is away for three days! Yess! I won't have to see her for THREE DAYS! I'm being mean, I know. But I just HATE her subject and the way she makes us get a 1/4 sheet of paper for a quiz as soon as she enters our room. And I also hate the way she rushes us into those pointless things that she makes us do. UGH!

A while ago, me and Migs peformed the Lapay dance for our periodical test in P.E. And I was really grateful 'cause we at least got 38 out of 50 even if we weren't able to finish the dance. Thanks, Ms. Alcantara...yun yon.

Me and Des are OK now. I'm so glad. :-D

AND....My Chemical Romance got a new album coming out on October 24th. It's called The Black Parade. AYOS! I'm so excited...

I took the ET for DLSU last Sunday. All I can say is: Hay nako! Bang-hirap!

Naee-LSS ako sa Linger...

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart, it's ruining everything

I swore, I swore I would be true
But honey so did you
But why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep
YOU KNOW I'M SUCH A FOOL FOR YOU
You've got me wrapped around your finger a ha ha ha
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

OOh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you

But I'm in so deep
YOU KNOW I'M SUCH A FOOL FOR YOU
You've got me wrapped around your finger a ha ha ha
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep
YOU KNOW I'M SUCH A FOOL FOR YOU
You've got me wrapped around your finger a ha ha ha
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

YOU KNOW I'M SUCH A FOOL FOR YOU
You've got me wrapped around your finger a ha ha ha
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger?

2006-10-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

Written:09.28.06

No classes today. And no electricity, too. The storm's FURIOUS. I miss my Ipod, I wish it's here with me today. There's no signal, too. Dunno why. So I can't do anything except read a book so I vowed to finish Dracula today. Yes, I am reading Dracula on a dark, gloomy day. Haha. But I got a bit scared on the part of "The Bloofer Lady", so I decided to stop for a while. God, it's boring here...and cold. But I know that this coldness that I'm feeling is not just because of the storm outside. It's just that...PEOPLE CAN BE SO COLD. Let me elaborate this: DES HATES ME RIGHT NOW. I honestly don't know why. But, I have an inkling, it's just that...God, I don't know. And I didn't want to confront her yesterday 'cause she won't talk to me properly. So I just left it at that. I don't want a fight. I still consider her my BEST FRIEND. The BESTEST friend I ever had. She had helped me through A LOT. Even if they're just trivial things such as helping me get rid of a stain on my skirt. Okay, I won't feel nostalgic now. I hate that feeling, it makes me sad.
Okay, so here's the deal. I feel lie I'm losing her. And I don't want to. I just want it to be like the old times. Whe we are "open" to each other. I never hid things from her. I tell her EVERYTHING. But right now, I feel as if that "openness" is gone between us. She's not the same anymore. Or is it me who've changed? I just hope that whenever she feels mad at me or something, she would TELL ME so that we can talk about it. I don't want it to be like...this. Honestly, I got frustrated at her yesterday. She isn't at all like the friend I've known since 1st year. She seemd so cold and distant she would'nt even look at me. God, I wish we could work things out.

Yesterday was really bad.

But it was also yesterday that I learned or rather, experienced "loving someone as a friend". When we say, "I love him/her as a friend" or "ONLY AS A FRIEND", it usually means we are letting someone down gently. Alright, picture this:You've got a guy friend whom you've known since you were in prep or something. But now that you're all grown up and your raging hormones are taking over you and you feel like you HAVE to love someone, your guy friend suddenly confesses his "undying love" for you out of the blue. And you, of course, would feel that it isn't right since you only see him as your best guy friend and nothing else. So to let him down gently after he professed "I love you", you might say "I love you, too...but only as a friend" instead of "Huh? But you've seen me in my worst haircut EVER, we played in the mud, I've seen your booger-picking habit come and go. WE ARE BEST FRIENDS since the beginning of time. I don't undersstand." See?
But yesterday...I don't know. I guess I felt praning or whatever. I felt inexplicably frustrated. I cannot EXPLAIN what really happened, it's not for all the world to see (or for what little number of readers I have to see). But going to the "loving someone as a friend" bit, I think I'll just define this phrase based on what I had experienced.

--It's worrying for "that" someone when you feel like "that" someone is up to something
--It's being hurt when you realized that "that" someone is probably hiding something from you
--It's if you cannot help but feel "angry, mad, infuriated" with "that" someone 'cause you've got a strong feeling that "that" someone had done something bad
--And it's getting all emotional and suddenly waking up in the middle of the night and crying like a silly fool bec. you're too overwhelmed by...

BASTA! Gosh. Yun yon.

I know that this may look malabo to you. Basta ako lang nakakaintindi nito ngayon.
If my assumptions are correct, God, I wouldn't know what to do. Now that everything between us is okay and a far cry from the way we were last year. Yes, I know I'm being so emo and praning and way too much ma-drama. I don't know what to think anymore.
It's a good thing I don't have a love life. That would be another problem.
LIFE'S A BITCH
A cruel, cold-hearted bitch....and she's out to get me.
Boohoo.....

Written:10.02.06

Problems.
They never end.
Everyone has problems.
Even the Rich has problems.
I have problems. Right now, my best friend hates me, my bookshelf is forever a mess, exams are coming up and I can’t understand a single thing in Math.
But why do we have problems? What’s the point of them? To make us stronger? Hah. Yeah, right.

And for today:

Na-move yung exams sa 13 and 14. Right now, I feel like there's this huge weight on my shoulder.No, it's not Natre (from Shutter) 'cause I've got nothing to do with her so she can't haunt me. It's those stupid, pointless schoolworks. I'm looking forward to the day when that burden will be lifted from my shoulders. And that day is GRADUATION DAY. Yun yon.
Alam nyo ba, ngayon ko lang pala napagtanto na ang gusto ko talagang course is EUROPEAN STUDIES. Eh sa ADMU at sa DLSU ako kumuha nun. sa UP hindi kasi di ko pa alam yun nung mga panahong yon. Shet...
Hmph.
We're not okay yet. With Miguel, OK na. But I mean with Des, NOT YET. And I hope it's not NEVER AGAIN.
I miss her, you know.
I'm not really mad, just...I don't know how I'm feeling. ANG GULO NG UTAK KO.
I'm currently reading Veronika Decides To Die and I won't be surprised if one day I will be admitted to a mental hospital for depression. Although I'm not sure if they require "depressed" patients to be admitted into a mental hospital here. Hay nako, ewan, wala akong alam. But I'm really getting bored with doing the same things over and over again everyday. I wonder if college will enable me to explore new horizons or something? Pero hopefully, makapasa sa UST or sa...ADMU? Heehee...ADMU. Asa-ness. Kasi yung European Studies eh...mahirap kaya yun? Lalo na sa UP, asa-ness. Anyway, I'll be taking the ET for DLSU on Sunday. Nakakatamad nga eh.
Hmph, kakanta na lang ako...

PARACHUTES
-Pearl Jam-

Why deny
All the troubles then combined
With the missing links
It don't feel like home now...

That you're gone
All the troubles
Suddenly explained infinitum
You're always wishing and never here at home

You
All the dreams we shared and
Lights we turned on
But the house is getting dark

And I don't want to know your past
But together share the dawn
And I won't need

Nothing else
'Cause when we're dead
We would've had it all

And died
I would've fallen from the sky
'Til you
Parachutes have opened now

Heaven knows if there's a ceiling
Come so low with the kneeling
Please know that I got

All the friends I'm needing
Before my light goes out
As the doors are closing now

And far away will be my home
And to grasp this, I don't know
And I don't need

Further back and forth, a wave will break on me today
And love...wish the world could go again with love
One can't seem to have enough
And WAR...break the sky and tell me what it's for
I'll travel there on my own
And love...what a different life
Had I not found this love with you

Yun yon eh!

Last Tuesday, since there were no classes, I watched The Breed with Migs. Ang pogi ni ERIC LIVELY todo bigay! And ang sexy ni Michelle Rodriguez. But the movie sucks, don't watch it.
I'm gonna watch The Reaping, Pulse and I can't wait for Spiderman 3. Topher Grace, yahoo!
Migs attempted to draw an anagram bearing my name and Isma's a while ago during Physics. Astig, man. Pero ipo-polish pa daw nya. I'll post them here some other time.

Makasaysayan? Pandaigdig?

2006-09-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

I skipped school today 'cause I'm sick. I've got a cold with matching headache. I look like hell. I hate being sick. I didn't do anything today except watch TV and sleep. I can't eat properly 'cause I can't taste the food. This is bad, I mean, I'm trying to gain weight. I want to gain weight. I HAVE to gain weight. I'm so skinny.

So anyway, I took the ACET last Sunday. Math was hard. And I was really happy with the theme of the essay. We were asked what benefits we can get from reading books. But I don't know if I'll pass, though. I'm just gonna have to keep my fingers crossed.
I'll be taking USTET this Sunday. Oh, God bless me! I really want to pass in UST! Good luck to me and to Des, Kat, Miguel, Tetang and MIguel.

Kaya yan!

Baby you're something like a phenomena

2006-09-05T20:11:00.000+08:00

I didn't do anything today except write a crappy autobiography in English. I hate writing autobiographies. I can't see its point. I mean, I didn't win a Nobel prize or something, I have NO significant experiences or achievements under my belt. I.AM.A.NOBODY. At least for now. :-D

Anyway, when I got home a while ago, I heard the news about Steve Irwin's demise. STEVE IRWIN, that crocodile guy? I didn't mean he's half-crocodile or something (haha corny) but he just adores crocodiles and...animals. He's also known as "The Croc Hunter". He's only 44 AND he didn't die because a crocodile had him for lunch. He was struck to the chest by a STINGRAY BARB, that cute (but deadly) fish who looks like a Pokemon to me.
Tsk tsk.
Life is...unpredictable. So we need to make the most out of it. We need to reach for our dreams while we're still alive and breathing. Stop complaining about small and trivial things, that's only natural in life. Sabi nga ni Bob Ong:
"Mangarap ka at abutin mo ito. Wag mo sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa 'yo ang magulang mo, pwede kang manisi at magrebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili..."

Wala lang.

-----------

toot toot

But I wonder how the heck I can make the most out of life when my teachers keep on giving us stupid seatworks and pointless homeworks. Plus, my ipod's broken and so is my Fiorucci watch, its strap fell off but the battery's still fine. WAH! I need my Ipod. I already miss it. I'm planning to have it fixed on Saturday.
GAD, life's a bitch.

He's not around he's always looking at men

2006-08-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

The first part of this entry was meant to be posted yesterday. But since time is verrrrrry short and our PC is as bulok as ever, I wasn't able to post it yesterday. *snorts* Our PC needs to be anointed now, it's dying....

I hate school. I hate those stupid seatworks and homeworks our unreasonable teachers make us do. I hate our Filipino teacher, our Physics teacher, and the subject Math, but not the teacher. Iwant to graduate already. Last Saturday me, Miguel, Kat, Tetang and Des went to UST. Ang daming chinito! Weeheee.....I really hope I'll pass there, asa naman kasi ako sa UP at ADMU, noh. But if I miraculously pass in UP, of course I'd go there. Duh. But right now, I feel like UST is my only hope. I'm going to take the USTET on September 24, THE week after my ACET. Whew! Haggard yun! We watched Click afterwards. Ang ganda, todo bigay! Nakakaiyak na nakakatawa. I thought Miguel was crying in the part wherein Adam Sandler's dad left his office crying. He was sniffing a lot, sinisipon lang daw siya. WEEEEE....hehe.....
It was a really good movie. I liked it.

We watched SummerSlam on Megamall a while ago. DX rocked Boston! Astig, man! But Shawn Michael's right shoulder was dislocated but it looked like it was nothing to him. Immune? Basta astigin talaga! Yun nga lang, Sabu lost to the Big Show and John Cena wasn't able to reclaim HIS title from Edge. TAE nga eh. But don't worry, John, you're still cute. Nothing can change that, not even a black eye. *wink*

Shoot! I haven't done my English homework yet.
Sige, toodles!

Today

The ending of A Rose for Emily creeped me out! It was close to midnight when I read it yesterday...it was weird, gruesome, macabre...I didn't know it was a horror story...

I felt irritable all day at school that I decided to go home early. I hate school. Hate it, abhor it, despise it. Right now, I'm doing my homework in CLE while listening to the clear, loud voice of the balot seller outside. I hate my life so much right now that I'm (suddenly) actually loving the idea of migrating to Australia.
I wish I have the ability to fly so that there would be no need for a visa. I'm not making sense here, I know. I can't think of a symbol for the sacrament of Reconciliation. Gosh. I wonder if something interesting will happen to me this year. Will an alien come and abduct me and whisk me away in a flying saucer? Will I see pigs fly? Will Jonathan Malen (new crush...) or JAKE GYLLENHAAL or Topher Grace surprise me at school and profess his undying love for me?
*makes tongue-clicking sounds*
Life's a bitch.

Todo bigay!

2006-08-24T10:00:00.000+08:00

LSS:
I wonder if you know
How they live in Tokyo
If you seen it then you mean it
Then you know you have to go
Fast and furious! (Drift, drift, drift, drift)

That's Tokyo Drift by Teriyaki Boyz. HAHA. I'm laughing at myself. HAHA. Drift, drift, drift, drift. Ang chaka naman ng bida dun eh. HAHA, pero ang cute nung isang girl dun, yung Japanese. Yung nagturo kay Sean nung sirang kotse na ginamit niya dun sa race. Basta.

So anyway, our class went to Baguio last Wednesday for our retreat. We very much enjoyed it, bitin nga lang kasi it was only three days. We went home last Friday.

Pics:

ang bad ni kat oh!

so kelangan todo tikwas hair ko...yuck...
(di pa complete ung upload...hayaan mo n nga!)

sa hapag-kainan, kung saan sinerve sa 'min ang todo-bigay sa sarap na mga pagkain...sheeet.....I could almost taste that excellent beef with broccoli we had for lunch on the first day...
(ang pogi ni martin noh? pogi ng noo)

class pic? di ata kami complete dyan eh

nice elia and riyad

mga aso sa retreat house, photo taken by kat

circle of friends...uy pinaghirapan namin 'tong shot na 'to!

me and carlos...
(kathryn....la lng...)

sa bus on the way home na....:-(

Well, everyone knows that retreat houses are supposed to be haunted. When "Causi Babsi Doo" assigned us our rooms on the first day, someone informed us about the rooms that are said to be "haunted". Turns out that our (Star's and mine) room is one of them. It was room no. 7. So we're like, "Why us?" So we decided not to mind it na lang. We were able to sleep comfortably and soundly during the first night. No creepy, hair-raising experiences for me! Thank God. The last night, Cha, Des, Tets, Jam and me all slept in Cha and Jam's room. It was fun. We all enjoyed that retreat so much! And the food was superb, man, todo bigay!
I've been saying todo bigay a lot since the retreat. I mean, we've (majority of my clasmates) been saying todo bigay a lot since the retreat. Thanks to Jam and Miguel. TODO BIGAY!

Well, so much for our retreat. I just found out about that drunk driving incident with Haley Joel Osment. Yes, that "I see dead people" kid from The Sixth Sense, was charged with DUIA and also with posession of marijuana I think, last August 18? To tell the truth, I had only briefly wondered about his absence in the spotlight so when I read about that incident, I was like, "He's already 18??" But he's still that cute, small boy with sparkly eyes from A.I. and Forrest Gump to me. I had no idea that he had, in fact, grown up. And about the charges, what's with these Hollywood actors nowadays? Why can't they hire drivers when they know that they drink a lot? Or why can't they just stay at home and drink there? If I become a Hollywood actress/Jake Gyllenhaal's betrothed, I'd make sure that I have someone to drive me home if ever I drank too much. Or I will simply not drink (ehem ehem), if I can help it. Teehee.

Free at last

2006-08-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

So the periodical test's over. How'd it go? PHYSICS. I am pretty sure my score in that test is below five. So fucking hard. Tsk tsk. Math was okay...I guess? But I hate Sir Soriano right now. He gives such low scores. Imagine, I have COMPLETE notes, I have written EVERY single number that he wrote on the board down on my notebook. Then he only gave me 21? 21 out of 50! That's very...LOW. Yuck. Good thing I passed the monthly test and I got a perfect score on the project he gave us. But I don't think that'll be enough 'cause I got low marks in his quizzes. Gosh, I hope I won't get a line of 7. I'll cry, I swear.
School is so depressing.
I wonder who invented school? That reminds me, I got this message from Jam. It goes like this:

In the beginning, God created the world in six days...then he rested on the 7th day. Then a stupid moron created SCHOOL. From then on..............pucha!
NOBODY RESTED!

HAHA. Very true.
Good thing I can rest for a while today. I had been so exhausted for the past few days. I'm currently making palanca letters. Whoa! Our retreat is next week na! I'm so excited...unfortunately, no cellphones....and ipods. *SAD* I'll miss my ipod. I'm used to traveling without it. Hmph.

Anyway, I didn't win anything yesterday in the Spellbound. It's okay. Pero grabe! It STARTED at 9 AM and ended at past 7 already! So tiring. Then I had a headache pa 'cause I was so hungry. Elia was given a consolation prize but we don't have any place. Oh well. Sabi nga ni Sir Gorgey, just "enjoy". Hmph, whatever.

You know what, I have a confession to make. I love What I've Been Looking For, one of the songs from High School Musical, It was performed by Ashley Tisdale, yung boses daga, according to Kat, and that gay dude (I mean, like duh it's obvious). Heehee.

Bow down to the King...

2006-08-08T10:10:00.000+08:00

I'm listening to the Wreckless Intent CD...again. I like Batista's entrance theme,which is Saliva's I Walk Alone, Rob Van Dam's Fury of the Storm, sung by Shadows Fall and of course....HHH's King of Kings by Motorhead. HAHA.
I also like Stone Cold's theme, but it's not on the CD. Oh well.
Anyway, I took my UPCAT yesterday and, surprise, surprise....it wasn't draining. But as usual, I didn't know what to do with some questions in Math, so, you know, shotgun, shotgun. HEHE. I didn't feel like the exam is five hours, but ang sakit ng batok ko ngayon, in fairness. Then we had our periodical a while ago. Yes, THE day after the UPCAT, we had to take our periodical. Cruel, noh? I am going to mention this in some future entries pa so that everyone will know how cruel my school is.
Trigo is soooooooo fucking difficult, pare. WHOO! And so is CLE, yes, Christian Living Education, IS hard. Hmph. But I can rest for a while because I am excused for the exam tomorrow 'cause.........tantanananan. I.MADE.IT.TO.THE.FINALS.OF.SPELLBOUND! Yey! I got the highest score. I couldn't believe it, really, the words given in the elimination were so hard and so...French. Good luck to me.
I'm gonna be taking the Math, Physics, Accounting and Comp. exams on Wednesday but I guess I'll start reviewing today. Naks, sipag talaga! And after the test, I can finally take a deep breath and......SLEEP. I am planning to skip school on Thursday but...bahala na.
But I still haven't done the Ateneo essay. I don't know HOW to start. Shucks.....

God, I can't wait to graduate. Can't wait to leave our cruel, disorganized school forever. Can't really wait.

Haggard-ness

2006-08-05T10:30:00.000+08:00

This week in school:
It was PANDEMONIUM. Everyone was running around, cramming, doing assignments at the last minute. What have we done to deserve all these? Our teachers, all of them except Sir Jorge "Gorgey" (teeheehee) Pacleb, they're all so CRUEL. Can't they see that we can't do all that they're asking us to do at the same time? What if we switched places? Then they'll know what it feels like to run around all day, trying to do their stupid homeworks and projects. We'll see how they'll feel. A while ago, our Filipino teacher, the one who thinks that the world is ending in three days because she's always in a rush, had us perform our Sabayang Pagbigkas during recess, yes RECESS, "BREAK" time. And after recess, we need to proceed to the church for the First Friday Mass. So we're like, haller? We still need to change into our costumes and then back into our school uniforms for the mass. I mean, how the heck are we gonna do that? We're not those sidekicks from Sky High who could change their clothes in an instant. So we like really changed back to our uniforms quickly and we went to church looking like we've just been harassed or raped or something. And then we saw our Fil teacher and guess what she said? "Ang tagal nyo". So I'm like, are you daft? We're not Dash, we're not Callisto, we don't have superpowers and we're not mutants! My fists REALLY balled itself into a fist and I just gritted my teeth and we just stayed away from her. Miguel just made a joke about her, doing his trademark teacher impersonating skills which never failed to make us laugh. HAHA.
Then after lunch is Math and my head ached after listening to Sir Soriano. Swear, I felt like someone is hitting it with a steel chair or a sledgehammer (wrestling??)And it's still aching but there are no steel chairs this time. I guess McDo's cheeseburger cured it a bit. Yum! Yum! Hehe...
So it's Friday, but not T.G.I.F. 'cause my UPCAT is on Sunday and our friggin' periodical is on MONDAY. Yes, THE day after my UPCAT. I always mention it so that everyone will know that my school is so C-R-U-E-L, and our principal's a sadist. Grr...badtrip.
But on the bright side, Jam told me that Sir Gorgey asked her for my cel number. Kilig. Joke. He's a married man, dammit! It's probably about the Spellbound. Karl said maybe I made it to the finals. I'm like, that's impossible, the elimination was so hard. But I don't wanna think about that right now, I've got a LOT of things to think about. Like for example, Mico, my crush, who's only a sophomore. hekhek. And Christian, who's only a freshman, but he's really got a CUTE smile. Killer, man! Besides, his section is my section's "baby" for the Freshmen's Day. So he's like, "my" baby, joke lang, child abuse. HAHA.
Oh! Last time I was so busy complaining about the date of our periodical that I forgot to mention that we watched PCD! HAHA! Yeah, PCD! The Pussycat Dolls. Yes. Me. Watched. PCD. And, with Kat(!) and Tetang. Heh. We met Bola there, he went with his family 'cause his sister wanted to watch. I'm like, "Sus, if I know, gusto mo rin eh. Kya ka pala absent kanina."
HAHA.
Me and Kat did nothing but OGLE the PCD. They are soooo HOT. We were like, "Whoa, sexy, man!" HAHA. And one of the girls, the red-haired one, looks like our Accounting teacher, so we're like, Go Miss Narag! HAHA. Dad and Kuya Alex went with me.
Oh well...I guess I'm done with this entry already. I still need to study for the UPCAT, although I know that my chance of passing is very dim. But nevertheless, I'm still gonna study. Naks sipag ba? Di totoo yan! Tomorrow I'm gonna go to mass to pray. Good luck to me. And thanks Liz for telling me to "break a neck"! I think that's what's gonna happen to me, all right. The UPCAT's 5 hours. Gosh...I hope I won't have mental block.

You're wearing your anguish again....

2006-08-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

I currently have:

4 unread books
a CD I haven't listened to yet
2 essays I need to do
an unfinished book report that is due this week

So as you can see, I'm good. I'm loving my life. Plus, our periodical test is after the UPCAT. So, that's PERFECT. Very good. And our Sabayang Pagbigkas is on Thursday already. Our Filipino teacher is always in a rush that I wish I could turn her into a snail. hah. Plus, there's a quiz in Math and Trigo tomorrow. And I have to perform those friggin' jazz steps tomorrow for our exam in PE.

Plus, I hate our school. I can't wait to graduate. Parents, don't send your kids to my school.

HAAAAAYYYYYYY..

Pakingsiyet

2006-07-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

~"My girl, my girl, don't lie to me/Tell me where did you sleep last night?/In the pines, in the pines, where the sun don't ever shine/I would shiver the whole night through...
Where Did You Sleep Last Night, Nirvana

We had our simulation test a while ago. And, as usual, I didn't know what to do in Math. I should really start reviewing 'cause I really, really felt that I did bad in that test. But there's soooooooooooo many things to do. I am rereading The Shadow of the Wind for my book report, and there are two books waiting in line to be read. The first is Dracula (after reading The Historian, I knew I have to read it) and the second one is The Romanov Prohecy. And then I joined in this spelling contest with a cash prize of 25,000 php at stake. Cash Prize, baby!

Thank God I was chosen for the elimination round on Wednesday, so I have to study for it. And then I still had to write an essay for the Ateneo application form and another essay for the OLPSian Times, plus that book report.

It never ends.
My God.

This week I'm going to review Gen Sci, Biology, Chem and Physics. Good luck sa 'kin, I'm gonna have to memorize the Periodic Table. Grrr. Stress. Stress. Kung pwede lang tumambay na lang pagka-graduate eh.

Yesterday we had out field trip but I'm not gonna write what happened here. 'Cause nothing happened. It was so fucking boring. And our adviser is so KJ. Pakingsiyet yang last field trip na 'yan. It's not memorable at all.

Badtrip. Badtrip.
Stress. Stress.
If only I'm born a math wiz. You know, that type who doesn't have to study so hard but can answer any problem given to him?
Sadly, I was not bestowed with that gift.

Badtrip. Badtrip. Stress. Stress.
Pakingsiyet...

If I have all the time in the world....

2006-07-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

If I have all the time in the world, I'd sleep, sleep and sleep...and probably read a lot of novels...and eat lots of pizza...and stare at pictures of Brandon Routh and Jake Gyllenhaal.
But sadly, I don't.
If I complained a lot last year about being so busy with school works and not having time for other things, I guess I'm not going to complain now because it might drive me insane.
MYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOD.
If only I can pass the UPCAT and the ACET and the other ETs without studying. I hate my school. Our principal is the most cruel among them all. No, not cruel. She's nefarious. She's like the female version of Vlad the Impaler or of Nero.
Imagine, Aug. 5 and 6 are the schedules for the UPCAT, and our Periodical test is scheduled on Aug. 7 and 8.
That'll be so fucking draining. My brain wouldn't be able to handle it. By August 9 I won't be able to remember my name anymore.
I hate this.
So I guess I'll just have to look on the bright side. Uh...if there's any.
I''ll just have to face the fact that my life is a gloomy, rainy day. There's not even a peek of sunlight in it.
*sigh*

But pushing rainy days and the sadness of my life aside, I'm so happy to be part of IV -St. Paul 'cause (almost) everyone's my textmate. That's because everyone's a Globe subscriber.I always receive gud morning, gud nyt and yehey unli n q messages everyday.

But it still doesn't change the fact that my life is that depressing time of the year which I always hate.
RAINY DAYS.

And they say that a hero can save us...

2006-07-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

This entry was meant to be posted yesterday...

As I exited the cinema last night after watching Superman Returns, I had these thoughts...aside from those Brandon Routh-related. tee hee...

What if Superman is real? Maybe things would be different in our world.

Women Need Superman
Here is one hot dude who'll come to your rescue when an ugly goon suddenly takes away your purse, or when disgusting drunkards surround you while you're on your way home late at night. Isn't that every woman's dream? A Knight in Shining Armor?
Or in Superman's case, an Extraterrestrial in Tights and a Red Cape.
If there really is a Superman, then maybe there are no rape cases today. Maybe Superman would have managed to save all those helpless victims(women and young children), who had their childhood and dignity taken away from them. Maybe he would have saved those whose lives had been taken by terrible things called lust and desire.
If Superman is real, then maybe us women will feel protected knowing that we're safe even if we're out in the streets at night 'cause there's a hero out there somewhere who'll surely come to our rescue when we need him.

This Country Needs Superman
Maybe Superman could put some sense on our government officials. Maybe Superman has this power to manipulate a human brain and teach it to do only what's right. Then maybe the lives of Filipinos will not be as hopeless as it is today.
If Superman existed, the Ultra Tragedy would never have happened. He would have put all those people to safety. Also the Landslide in Leyte. Superman could've stopped the landslide from covering the entire town and its inhabitants.

The World Needs Superman
There would've have been no 9/11 if there's a real Superman. He could've thwarted those tragedies. He could've stopped those airplanes from hitting their targets and land them to safety, like he did to the plane in which Lois Lane is in. Then the World Trade Center would've still been standing proudly today.
There would be no bombings, kidnappings and beheadings today if Superman existed. He could stop them all-the bombs, the terrorists, the big guns which sends poor helpless people to their demise in just one shot.
Superman could stop them all, even those natural catastrophes. After all, he's SUPERman.
But I think that if he existed, he would eventually grow tired of us. We would be too dependent on him, like we are today on machines. No matter how many times he saves us, that wouldn't stop crimes, that wouldn't stop evil deeds. Evil can't be stopped. So if we call out for him everytime, that's asking for too much. And he'll give up on us and leave us. Not all things can be rectified. There are things that just won't go away, and we just have to leave it as that.
So in this demented world we live in, all we have to do is to be each other's Superman..., or each other's Spider Man...or each other's Batman.
Because nobody's born with extraordinary super powers. No caped or masked hero will come to save us.
All we really have...is one another.

CHAKA MINUTE!

2006-06-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

I am now an Entertainment staffer in our school's paper, The OLPSian Times. I was thinking of writing blind items about celebrities, since it's "Entertainment". I mean c'mon, is it a fantastic idea, or what? HAHA. No, I have no idea what to write yet. Me and Mikhail (my editor, o di ba, sosyalin!) were thinking movie reviews and I also suggested a book review. Oh what the hell. If I'd make a review about Superman Returns this is what you're apt to see:

Brandon Routh is gorgeous. He's so damn cute...and he's hot. He's everything Toby Maguire's not. He makes me swoon. And if he makes you swoon, too, I don't care. And, uh, I give this movie five stars 'cause Brandon Routh is...HOT.

HAHA
Makes no sense I know.

Now before I turn in, I have something I'd like to put here. It's very important.
RAE BARBOZA
~~FUCK YOU.~~
You've got such a horrid, horrid face and an attitude to go with it. In a few days, I hope you'll turn to stone, you f@#$*& scoundrel...

Undecided

2006-06-20T14:15:00.001+08:00

~"I like it I'm not gonna crack/I miss you I'm not gonna crack/I love you I'm not gonna crack/I kill you I'm not gonna crack..."
Lithium, Nirvana

I can't decide on what to take up for college. I already wrote Creative Writing on my UP form (which I haven't submitted yet) and Comparative Literature as my second choice. But I feel like going for European Studies also.
I'm so fucking undecided. So fucking confused. So fucking...lonely? But that's not my point here. I'm just undecided, that's all. Isn't that in Ohio?, o Cleveland ba yun? Yung sabi sa What A Girl Wants. Oh well. Whatever. Never mind.

I wonder if something good will ever happen in my life.
It's BORING.

Knock Knocks

2006-06-17T10:25:00.000+08:00

I'd like to share with you guys these extremely hilarious knock knocks. They're soooo funny that your ribs will crack, your sides will split open and your mirth will be totally uncontainable.
tee hee...

Knock knock
Who's there?
X-ray
X-ray who?
X-ray-ning men hallelujah x-ray-ning men amen...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Kamuning
Kamuning who?
Kamuning get me, get me, get me baby I'm yours Kamuning get me...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Come back to me
Come back to me who?
Come back to me-bok ang puso...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Funk that thing
Funk that thing who?
Funk that thing ng panahon baka ikaw rin at ako...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Dun siya
Dun siya who?
Dun siya wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Dun siya wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? Dun siya...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Below
Below who?
Below-ten mo akong liwanag ng iyong pagmamahal...

Knock knock
Who's there?
Uod
Uod who?
Uod mga kapatid, tayo ay magsama-sama iwagayway na ang bandera rakenrol hanggang umaga...

Knock knock
Who's there?
May kumaway
May kumaway who?
May kumaway downtown walking past faces pass and I'm home-bound

har har

No particular topic

2006-06-16T09:15:00.000+08:00

~"A little bit of resolve is what I need now/Pin me down, show me how..."
Resolve,Foo Fighters

This post has no partivular topic. Just...thoughts...in my head...they come and go...yuck kumanta. Anyway, I finally found a time to blog. Last week when school started I wasn't able to find a way to squeeze blogging between my homeworks. The teachers already gave us lots and lots of work to do that we were so ecstatic when we learned that there are no homeworks for today.

Gosh, I'm already missing A LOT of things since school started, and it's not even a month yet. Bummer. First I'm not updated on wrestling anymore, and I haven't watched Cars yet, I've already missed two episodes of One Tree Hill and I can't read Catherine de Medici nang tuloy tuloy, yun bang mga 100 pages a day ngayon mga 3 pages lang kelangan ko nang mag-stop. Leche.

In school, aside from the schoolworks nga, everything's a bit OK naman. The gang are all in one section BUT, Kat and Jam has this misunderstanding so parang 'di kami complete kasi si Jam di sumasabay. Actually andami ngang magka-away ngayon eh. Si Des meh kaaway. Nu ba yan. TAE. Bummer pa kasi lunch namin 40 minutes lang tae di pa nga ako nakakasubo nun.

Anyway, me and Tetang are seatmates and we spend almost all the time laughing even if the teacher is discussing. Usually involved si Charo so parang ang lakas ng force naming tatlo. Let's wait and see when the lessons become complicated, if we'll still have a reason to laugh and disregard the teacher in front. Sa review class naman, OK din. Ang saya nga eh. I've made friends. Pia from AA and Camille, na nakalimutan ko na ang name ng school. AND, our English teacher there is damn HOT. Basta ang pretty nya and she looks young for a married woman. Bummer nga lang kasi walang cute na guy wala ring maganda, ako lang. Yuck sabay ganun.

Nga pala, si Claude kanina tinagalog yung chorus ng About A Girl kasi I wrote it down on my brown envelope kasi nae-LSS ako ilang araw na. The chorus is this:

I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I can't see you every night

His translation:

Mamanyakin kita
Habang ako ay nakasabit at nagpapatuyo
Pero hindi kita makita tuwing gabi

Tang ina tawa kami oh. Eh we just came from the loo(yuck soxal Brit). Nagulat na lang ako nakakumpol sila sa seat ko tapos yun nga tina-translate ni Claude.

HAHA.

I wish I could do this more often, you know, blog. I don't know when I will be able to blog again. Curse homeworks. I wish they were never invented. I'll just try to update on a...how do you call it? Regular basis? Oh well, whatever, never mind...Hello, hello, hello how low?...yuck kumanta na naman?
Anyway, I'm outta here now.
Ciao! GTG. XOXO. Luv yah!
Tae, Lea enough na nga na-baliw ka na naman.

BACK TO STALAG 14 TOMORROWsigh

2006-06-06T10:20:00.000+08:00

~"So run...right...back to school/Look back I sift through all the cliques/Roaming the halls all year making me sick..."
Back To School, Deftones

As I look back to the past years, I remember this certain feeling I always had before the first day of school. That feeling of misery or dread, like you're hoping that something will miraculously come up and you'll have to go away to some far-off place and miss the first day of school. But now, for some reason, I'm not feeling that way. Yes, there's dread, but it's probably just laziness 'cause all the other private schools will have their classes next week and it's really, really early still. My point is, I'm not feeling sad and not complaining about how I'll miss the summer and how fast the summer passed by. I guess the reason for this is because tomorrow is my last first day. I'm going to graduate next year. I haven't started thinking about the many lasts that will happen this year yet. But I know that the reason why I'm looking forward(just a bit) to tomorrow is because I have to cherish it. 'Cause it's gonna be my last.

Just blogging out of boredom

2006-06-01T08:20:00.000+08:00

~"You only hold me up like this/'Cause you don't know who I really am/Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you..."
-Of All The Gin Joints In All The World, Fall Out Boy

Just blogging out of boredom. And because I missed, really, really missed blogging. The first day of school is next week already. But I don't wanna think about it. Screw school. No, FUCK school. Stay in bed. Naks! HAHA.
So anyway, yesterday, I watched Poseidon in Galle with Tetang. What can I say? It's an OK movie. After watching, we went to look at the shops. I bought a blue (I swear next time, I'm going to buy a different color)sleeveless top in Solo. There was another top there that caught my eye but is way too much for my budget. I knew I should've asked Dad for more but there's still too much to fix in our house so I guess I need to be a bit frugal. A bit lang naman eh. hehe.
Then I saw the cutest guy in Fila. Rugged-looking but swear, cute talaga. Kasi we're on our way to the washroom and I happened to be looking at the window of Fila when I saw him there, looking rather bored or shy or whatever. His hair was shoulder-length and he's got a goatee. Tetang said that she will look inside Fila but when we got out of the washroom she said never mind. Na-shy ata. SAYANG. Tsk tsk.
I also saw the cutest Havainas. It's called Cartunistas (?) Not sure kung meh "S". Whatever. Basta I want it. No, i NEED it. A bit frugal lang naman di ba? E di I won't buy books muna basta I have to have it. It's so cute. Like that rugged guy.
Teehee.
And oh, I can't wait for the premiere of High School Musical on Disney Channel. Kamukha ni Luke Skywalker yung guy dun. But that's not why I want to watch the movie. Ay, basta!
Gosh I think I'm not making sense here. But like I said, just blogging out of boredom.

I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!

2006-05-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

"Flip-flop cruisers blow your mind/Trip-hop sutures they rewind/It's alright, it's alright/We love to dream/In black and white...
-Beautiful Machines, Pupil

Yee-hah! After, like, 50 decades, I can now finally connect to the 'Net. So without further ado, I'm going to list down the things that happened to me which should be chronicled here weeks ago but sadly, our PC won't cooperate.

April 29
It was so hot I swear it's gonna kill me. I had to "get away". So me, my mom, L.A., Nicole and Arie went to the mall to watch a movie. Mom, L.A. and Nicole watched Ice Age 2 while me and Arie went to see Silent Hill(with matching werewolf howl). And...surprise, surprise....I was able to sleep that night and the following nights without those disturbing images of people being "barbed wir-ed" to death haunting me. That day, I also bought (and started reading) The Birth of Venus.

May 2
Finished The Birth of Venus. That night, I wrote a review about it. Or I called it a review 'cause that's what I like to call it.

May 6
It's my nephew Josh's christening!!! Josh is the cutest of 'em all! Look:

mukhang Chinese...cute!

May 10
Flew to Hong Kong. Our first day there...we went shopping...mostly for toys in the world-famous TOYS 'R'US.

May 11
Went to Disneyland. I had sooooo much fun, even though the only thrilling ride(i.e., roller coasters with drops designed to make people's intestines fall out) there is the Space Mountain. What I enjoyed the most is shopping and the fireworks. I am also disappointed 'cause the girl that they hired to be Mulan isn't pretty enough or Chinese-looking enough. But Princess Aurora looked like a real-life Barbie doll. She is so beautiful she doesn't seem to be human anymore. HAHA.
Oh, look, pics!

since no one can pull the excalibur out, let's just pose with it!

You saved our lives, we are eternally grateful...

whoa whattahair dude! ang hangin kasi eh...

May 12
Then it's off to Ocean Park. Now this is where the thrilling rides are found. There's this thing called Space Wheel and this roller coaster with super lupet drops, I think it's called Mine Train or something. And another rollercoaster called The Dragon with three loops and finally, this ride called The Abyss where you're made to sit on a chair with your feet dangling and then you'll be suspended about 60 feet high and then it will just drop. I told myself I'm absolutely not gonna ride that thing when I first saw it. But in the end, I was forced to ride it with my cousin, Kuya Alex. He convinced me that it would be nothing to me since I'm not afraid of the Anchors Away. And when The Abyss dropped he was right, I felt nothing. It was fun. When we rode that loopy coaster, it was also nothing compared to that first coaster we rode, that Mine thing. I just love roller coasters!

overjoyed kmi

in one of those loooong escalators in Ocean Park...i did the peace sign 'cause i noticed that the chinese always do it in pictures, well, feeling chinese...

laki ng tiyan ko ampota

May 13
Time to go home.....sadly. Our flight back home was scheduled at 8 PM so we did some shopping first. I bought this cute Chinese doll which I named Xiao Long Nu(si DA DA dun sa Love of the Condor Heroes hehe).
Then on the airport I bought Sophie Kinsella's Undomestic Godess from this bookstore called Replay. I immediately started reading it and by the next day, tapos na! The character wasn't that quirky and fun unlike Beck Bloomwood but the story is interesting. Favorite ko na si Sophie Kinsella...

May 19
Watched Over The Hedge with L.A. and Nicole. Mom and Dad watched The Da Vinci Code, R-18 kasi eh...but it's OK...

May 24
Went to this get-together with my other batch mates. Went home at 5 AM reeking of Gran Ma. Drunkard! Hehe...minsan lang naman...and besides, I feel like walang time ngayong school year na 'to para sa mga inuman at kalokohan. Or kung may time man, my 'rents won't allow me to go 'cause I've got those entrance exams and whatnot.

May 25
Dad's birthday!

May 26
We watched The Last Stand. Angel was so cute but he's Ben Foster, and Jon Foster's his bro, and Jon's my hubby, so Ben is my brother-in-law, so he's off-limits.
haha.
Peeling na naman oh!

---So...I guess I missed blogging a LOT this summer because of this darn PC...
And the first day of school is drawing near. I'm not looking forward to it. I'm actually dreading it. Who knows what kind of people my classmates are gonna be this year. And what if I'll be separated from Des and the gang again? God, I hate school. And my review class starts on Saturday. I'm not looking forward to that either. In fact, I'm not looking forward to anything school-related.

---Pahabolz...I'm gonna put our Hong Kong pics in my Multiply some time in the future na lang...leche kasi tong PC na 'to eh...HMPH!

2006-04-29T14:50:00.000+08:00

LSS:"Could you show
me dear something I've not seen?/Something infinitely interesting..."
(ewa ko ba, ka-luma na eh...)

Gagong gupit ako! Hehe. Look:

with my nephew Arie, he had his hair highlighted

Anyway, I'm done reading The Dream Merchantlast Wednesday. After
that, I immediately started reading The Five People You Meet in Heaven
. I finished it that night before I went to my habit of playing Brick in my
ipod until I fall asleep.
The Five You Meet in Heaven is so good I wanted to underline all the
good parts. But that would mean underlining the whole book. I cried
on the part when he saw his father in heaven and he forgave him and he said
"It is fixed". Basta you should read it although I'm pretty sure everyone(those
who care about books, that is) must've already read it. I especially liked the
lesson the Blue Man taught him, that "death doesn't just take someone, it
misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being
missed, lives are changed." And also the one that Ruby taught, that "no one is
born with anger. And when we die the soul is freed of it. But here(in heaven),
in order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did, and why
you no longer need to feel it."
I also encountered some interesting quotes in The Dream Merchant:

"...snakes protect people, and they know the secrets of life. You need
never be afraid of snakes..."
-Max Herbert, Talent Scout, Dispatch Board of Gippart

"This lesson: stare whatever makes you afraid straight in the eye. Do you
understand me? Stare the nightmare straight in the eye..."
-Master in warrior-umaya

Chapter 15:
The day looked quite different when you were alone. Alone except for your
dead sister and her silent guardian. The day seemed more impersonal,
somewhat malignant, acrimonious and threatening. But then again, it was
your alone. Your enemy, your friend. Yours to tame.

"It doesn't matter where we've been. What matters is where we're going."

So, next in line, no I won't continue with the Dark Tower yet 'cause I
want to read Birth of Venus and American Gods first and
The Virgin Suicides,too.

Gosh...so many books, so little time.

Anyway, books aside, I'd like to share with you guys a pic of this undeniably
HOT guy called Wentworth Miller.

I think it was Maundy Thursday then or Good Friday when I was channel
surfing 'cause there wasn't anything good to watch. So I came across this show
in Crime Suspense called Prison Break and I saw this guy and my
initial reaction was "Uy, kamukha ni Elijah Wood". He's so cute. And
then, the week after that, I had almost forgotten about that cute guy(for I
still doesn't know his name that time). I went to Ala Paredes' blog and then
clicked one of her links called Lucy. I was reading her posts when I saw the
guy's pic there. That's how I learned the hottie's name. Then the other, other
day, I Googled him, I learned that he's multiracial(cool!) and that he's the guy
from the Mariah Carey video(s) It's Like That and We Belong
Together, the guy she dumped her supposed-to-be groom for. Well, good
choice since her groom-to-be is no doubt an old-timer. HAHA.
Guess I have a new husband-again. Seems like eveyday there's a new husband.
Oh well. The world is full of hotties.
I mean, the TV is.

2006-04-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

~"Life is but a dream for the dead and well I, I won't go down by myself but I'll go down with my friends..."

Dammet I'm sick! My throat feels like it's bleeding, I can't breathe and my right ear feels like someone's pricking it with a toothpick. To top it all off, I got my period today. I'm VERY uncomfortable. And it's so hot. And our aircon's broken. Fuck it.
My life is like Hell. Oh no, sorry. My life is hell.
I need some kind of a remedy. "HIM" maybe? But it seems like I've forgotten all about him already. Sigh.

Last Monday I went swimming with Kris and her sisters and Pao, Jam, Cha, Jen, Kim and Carlos. Had fun. Naturally, we took pictures which I posted in my plain Multiply site. I still don't know how to change the layout...someone help...pretty please? I went to McDonald's after Kris' uncle dropped us off at the church parking lot. Kuya Alex picked me up there and we went to Robinson's Homes. Then I went swimming again. I wasn't going to but I can't help it. It's so hot and besides, it's already nighttime so I won't have to worry about my skin. hehe. That's probably the reason why I'm now sick. Di sanay katawan ko sa swimming. hehe.

Anyway, I've got a new husband. Si Matt Hardy. Heehee...actually, I've been crushing on him dati pa, but this pic made me say "yes" to his proposal. Peeling na naman oh! Pagbigyan! hehe. cute-ness niya kasi eh...

Changed my layout. Di halatang excited ako sa X3 noh? It's been ten years since the movie was followed kasi.

Gosh...I hate this. I hate being sick...
Mommy...

2006-04-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

To someone I wish I have: "I am falling, say my name/And I'll lie in the SOUND/What is love, but whatever/My heart needs around/And it needs you too much now"
It is sooooooooooooo HOT! It's during times like this when I wish I'm a guy instead. I could walk around the house shirtless. Haha.
I was really in "Crush Heaven" the day after that night. I even made a playlist in my ipod with songs for him. But aside from that, nothing happened last Friday in my life. I woke up late and stayed in bed until lunch time. Slacker mode took over that day. Saturday we went to Subic. Stephen went with us. We had to leave Antipolo very, very early so we picked them up at about past five and Stephen was already talking about cars and Spongebob Squarepants. He didn't even sleep on the way there. I didn't, either. I'm too busy thinking of him. Heehee. We reached Subic at a surprisingly early time. We went to Zoobic first where we were introduced to different kinds of animals, many of which came from other countries. I learned a very cute fact: male porcupines impregnate the female ones by spraying their urine on the female since they can't mount them or something because it'll be too dangerous for them. Haha, interesting. Then we had an "encounter with the tigers" wherein we were made to ride a vehicle and we drove around an area where tigers roamed around freely. A chicken was used to entice the tigers so that they will come near your vehicle. One of the tigers even jumped on the roof of our vehicle when the man holding the chicken threw the chicken on the roof. Stephen was so cute. He didn't even scream while the tiger was near our vehicle. He even tried to get near the window. After the "encounter", we were led to the reptile house. I couldn't look at the lizard/iguana-like creatures there. I only looked at snakes. I don't know why but I'm fascinated by them. I think their skins are so cute. I especially like the Albino snake, the one whose skin is yellow. There was also a snake there which is called the blood snake I think. Its skin is of a really pretty red color. After that, we were taken to the tigers' cages where the tigers sit there prettily and spray their urine on people whenever they want to. The guide said they do that to mark their territory.
After that, we drove back to the hotel to check in. Stephen kept on talking to our tour guide about tigers. I just can't stop talking about Stephen, right? He's my first godson, after all, and I really love him though he's verrry bratty. Anyway, we ate lunch at Gerry's Grill and we went to J.E.S.T Camp where we saw the different kinds of spiders and entered a place filled with butterflies. I had my picture taken with a white, parrot-like bird which is soooo beautiful. The man perched it on my shoulder. After leaving the camp, we drove to Jollibee(haha) and bought dinner. We ate dinner aback at the hotel and me, together with my cousin Nicole, L.A., Stephen's mommy and Stephen, went night swimming at the hotel's swimming pool. We were forced to stop because someone puked on the water (gross ang wala!)
The next morning we went to Ocean Adventure and watched the shows starring the sea lions, the false killer whales and the dolphins. I bought a blue miniskirt from the souvenir shop although I dunno when I can use it 'cause it's very short. But it was so cute and I had to have it! After that, we had lunch at Dencio's naman. After lunch, we decided that it's too early to head back home (it was only 3:30) so after dropping our tour guide off at the Subic Airport, we headed for the All Hands beach and decided to kill time there. We rented a water bike thingy with big wheels. Me and Ate Badet (Stephen's mommy) had Stephen sit between us during one of my turns on the bike. Stephen kept on saying that he wanted to go back to L.A. as we pedalled around. I kept on telling him not to move.

Me: Stephen, don't move or I'll throw you into the water.
Stephen: No, it's too deep. I might cry.
Me: Then don't move.
Stephen: You're bad, Ate Lea. I will throw you there.
Me: I will drown.
Stephen: I want you to drown. Momore(no more) Ate Lea.
Me: Ngek.

La lang.
Last Monday, I'm back to Slacker Mode again. I watched wrestling in bed and after lunch, I decided to watch Stay, which I spent pondering on while taking a bath later on. The movie was so freaking complicated. I didn't get what happened at the end. I still don't get it now. But one thing's for sure, Ryan Gosling is sooooo cute. After that, I watched Little Manhattan then started reading The Dream Merchant. Then last Tuesday, I went to Galle with Jam and Kat. We arrived there at lunch time and we spent about thirty minutes deciding on where to eat. So we finally decided on Shakey's and ordered the cheapest meal (hey, our parents aren't with us). Me and Kat laughed at the waiter. No, actually, we laughed in front of him. It was like this. Kat asked me to ask the waiter for a hot sauce since she couldn't eat her pizza without it. Eh, I was kinda shy though the waiter isn't cute at all. So I just decided on catching his attention by following the waiter with my look. When he finally came over to our table, I already shoved garlic bread in my mouth and I couldn't speak when he asked me if there was anything I wanted. I looked at Kat and she was looking at me and I motioned for her to tell the waiter and she kind of stammered and I was already laughing so she laughed too and the waiter was smiling, probably thinking of calling the mental. Then later on, when we were given that paper in which we were to put our comments on, Kat wrote The waiter is friendly. I told her she should've wrote funny instead.
After that, we watched Eight Below. I observed that the number of people watching inside was also eight below. hehe. We all bought Tumbler-sized popcorns. While watching, we all observed that the popcorn is still full even though we've been munching on it since we entered the cinema and our jaws were already aching. So Kat and Jam threw them at each other eh I can't throw mine because it's cheese-flavored so I just took it home. On the Fx on our way home, me and Kat put gummy worms in our mouth and both did Boogeyman impersonations. We kept on saying, "I'm the Boogeyman, coming to get you" over and over again, parang na-LSS? We hung out at McDo for a whule and went home na.
Yesterday, I was on Galle again. I went searching for a new swim suit with Ate Badet, Kuya Alex and L.A.. Mom got furious with me while we were dining at Shakey's(nakita ko ulet yung waiter haha) because I erased the pictures on her old cellphone(she already gave it to me) She said that she's still going to Bluetooth it on her new cell. Gosh.......I didn't know........
But we're OK now. I think.
I'm outta here now. I'm itchy.......

School's Over...finally

2006-04-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

To someone I never had:And I knew your heart I couldn't win/Because the season's change was a conduit/And we'd left our love in our summer skin...

Finally, after, what, 200+ of totally uneventful and stressful school days, we are finally allowed to run free and...wild. Sigh...thank you, Baby Jesus. There's just so many things I'm planning to do this summer since I'll be making the most out of everything 'cause I know that I'm in for a verrrrrry BUSY school year. I'll be in my last and final year in high school. Shucks. Just thinking about it makes me nervous but excited. Mixed. But anyway, I'm not gonna think about that for now. It's still the second day of vacation. Hmmm...I wonder how busy I'm going to be this year. Probably sooooo busy that I may even think of killing myself. Like those suicidal kids who now haunt the corridors of various universities because "they just can't take the pressure" blah blah blah. But anyway, ghosts aside (they might decide to visit me if I don't stop soon, they might read this...ghosts are very hi-tech these days, hm?), my summer to-do list:

-Gain weight
-Gain weight
-Gain weight
-Get a new hairstyle
-Try to make my own blog skin
-Read the rest of the Dark Tower series...although I took a break and had been reading Shopaholic and Sister all day
-Watch the complete first season of One Tree Hill on DVD
-Continue with voice lessons(???)
-Gain weight

Wait I just remembered. Last night, I had a major "silay" fest. But I still wonder what made me like him. I mean, he's not at all like the other guys I had a crush on. He's not chinito...
I just can't believe I'm so into him that I'm even feeling so kilig all over right now while I'm writing this.I mean, it's been ages ago since I last saw him and I was expecting that I wouldn't feel anything anymore but last night...
And actually, the only reason I went was really just because of him. Anika's right.
Yeah.
How can you make yourself not like someone?
And why am I stopping myself from liking him?
God, I'm going crazy...but this is a demented world.
You know, I don't even want to put his name here 'for fear that he might accidentally (miraculously)stumble upon this little blog of mine. Although I don't think that's gonna happen since he's not into blogs or blog-hopping, as far as I know.
But whatever.
I'm outta here.

>>>Damn this internet connection!

Screw Titles(again...and again)

2006-03-28T10:40:00.000+08:00

~"I'll go where secrets are sold where roses unfold. I'll sleep as time goes by..."

Damn. It's the 27th of March already. I should be on vacation now, staying up 'til the cocks are already making their crowing noises, signifying the crack of dawn and waking up verrrrrrrry late. But no, I'm still stuck in school, forced to do stupid seatworks and listen to the friggin' (and seemingly endless) lessons of my droning, sadistic, fun-sucking teachers.
Damn it.
God damn it.
Shit.
Fuck.
I could go on and on. I could even cuss in French.
Merde.
This sucks.
Big time.
I'm outta here....

>>>Wait......new layout!!! I admit it's all messed up and stuff but I just downloaded it. I found the photo cool. Besides, I kinda got tired of the MCR layout. But this layout wouldn't last long, I guess. I'm gonna change it again after our most anticipated (not!) finals. My Chemical Romance ulit. hehe.....
That's it. I'm really outta here.....

"Love is a force of nature..." (sosyal!)

2006-03-24T08:45:00.000+08:00

So Last Monday, I celebrated my 16th year of sometimes worthy sometimes not existence on earth. Actually, I also celebrated it last Saturday in Callospa with my friends and family. So, I'm 16 now but I don't feel like I've grown a year older at all. I made a loooot of wishes before blowing the sixteen candles (oo meh sixteen candles...debut ba eto?? in the cake. I hope those wishes will alllllll come true. I just hope that life is now done giving me misery and "unfair-ness". I hope that it will finally turn to me now, and not against me.

Bow.

Anyway, no words can describe how I liked Brokeback Mountain. It's soooo beautiful beyond the valley of beauty and dwelling into the land of beautiful movies. Heath Ledger is so cute. I now also understand why that woman in the cinema's ticket booth didn't allow me inside the cinema even if I'm with my mom. So this movie is strictly not for green-minded people, like for instance, a certain group of boys in my classroom who's got nothing up in their minds but that "S" word. Worthless.

But the movie is superb. A+, five movie stars. Whatever. Ang Lee, Jake Gyllenhaal, Papa Heath and the people responsible for the making of this movie, I praise YOU.

"He Was A Friend Of Mine"
by Willie Nelson

~He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Everytime I think of him now
Lord, I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine

He died on the road
He died on the road
Just kept on moving
Never reached what he couldn’t sought
And he was a friend of mine

I stole away and cried
I stole away and cried
'Cause I never had too much money
And I never been quite satisfied
And he was a friend of mine

He never done no wrong
He never done no wrong
A thousand miles from home
And he never harmed no one
And he was a friend of mine

He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I hear his name
Lord I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine.

>>The song playing while the credits are rolling...dinagdagan pa ng song na 'to nakakaiyak tuloy lalo...T_T

~~Brokeback Mountain~~
~~Memoirs Of A Geisha~~
Nanny McPhee
Stay
Derailed
Munich
Jarhead
V For Vendetta
~~Firewall~~
When A Stranger Calls
Cassanova
Pride And Prejudice
X3
The DaVinci Code
Proof
The Pink Panther
Eight Below

Just Another BORING Monday

2006-03-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

~"Fall on me. Tell me everything you want me to be. Forever with you. Forever in me. Ever the same..."

I hate Mondays. I think it is invented by hard-working people who doesn't appreciate the beauty and joy the weekeends bring. People who just adores working or studying their asses off, i.e., swots. I didn't do anything today except get bored and cut my split ends off while Mrs. Resurreccion droned on and on about...something. Plus, I just hate, despise and abhor our subjects during Monday. Three of them, that is. First, PEHM (yawn....a big one at that). I know Physical Education classes are supposed to be fun but that's not the case in my school. Our PEHM subject is stupid...and completely pointless. Next, C.L.E.(a WIIIIDE yawn + slit wrists). Good thing I can pass this one without listening to Mrs. Resurreccion, who is both a nasty kill-joy and a "DRONER" (meaning, one who drones). And the third one of course is COMPUTER (a BIG, WIDE yawn that tears my mouth apart + slit wrists + plunge into a pool filled with different kinds of sharks). Try going into my school and you'll see why I detest Computer soooo much when I should hate Chemistry more.
Mondays suck. And my birthday is on Monday next week. BUMMER.

Anyway, pushing Mondays and boredom aside, here is a list I made a few weeks ago of "MUST-see" movies or rather, "WILL-see" movies:

Brokeback Mountain
~~Memoirs Of A Geisha~~
Nanny McPhee
Stay
Derailed
Munich
Jarhead
V For Vendetta
~~Firewall~~
When A Stranger Calls
Cassanova
Pride And Prejudice
X3
The Da Vinci Code

...and I also made a list of CDs that I will hunt down until I reach the very last soil in the Philippines:
Based On A True Story by The Starting Line
Voices by Matchbook Romance and
Stricken by Disturbed

Well, got nothing more to say......

A Very Long Entry

2006-03-09T11:40:00.000+08:00

So finally, after almost four weeks of sitting in front of the computer, wishing that the modem will miraculously install itself, I am now back in action. It's already March and my last post before this was on February 6, that was ages ago. So anyway, I am back and since I so missed my blog, I can't wait to post a new entry that I am currently writing this while doing a book summary in English, watching wrestling and texting. Yup, multitasking. Anyway (again), as the title suggested, this is gonna be one hell of a long post since I'd like to give an update on what's been going on in my (fucked-up) life while I was deprived of the 'Net.

Here they are:
---We were not able to use the Internet because Dad installed the XP and he still needed to install the modem.
---I hated my life more and more.
---Dad (finally) bought me an Ipod Nano.
---I've dumped my cellphone...but I still use it of course.
---Me and my Ipod are inseparable.
---I was forced to do belly dancing for our cultural presentation in Social Studies.
---Brokeback Mountain is a PG-18 so I wasn't allowed inside the cinema. BUMMER.
---We went to Baguio to watch the Panagbenga Festival.
---We watched the RAW Live Tour in Araneta before going to Baguio.

"SHAWN MICHAELS WASN'T THERE..."
at the RAW Live Tour in Araneta last Feb. 24

So me, together with my brother and my dad, watched the RAW Live Tour in Manila last Feb. 24 before going to Baguio after the show. We bought ringside tickets and we were seated in the third row. The matches were quick and weren't as exciting as the ones seen on TV. When we arrived, Maria was introducing Precious Lara I-don't-know-how-to-spell-her-last-name and two other Filipina pageant winners. I don't know which pageant, though. Or maybe they are winners of the Supermodel of the Whole Wide Universe(hehe). The matches that night were between: Eugene and Tyson Tomko, Chris Masters (gwapo! just don't look at the body, torso longer than legs...) and Val Venis, RVD and Carlito (cute din...I was expecting he'd give his apple away), Torrie Wilson and Trish Stratus, Viscera and Snitsky, Triple H and Big Show, Ric Flair and Shelton Benjamin and of course the Main Event that night, John Cena vs. Edge (with Lita, of course) and with Mick Foley as the special guest referee. Lita is pretty, in a slutty kind of way. And Edge is...well, the way you see him on TV. And John Cena was...well, the way you see him on TV, too. In fact, they all look exactly the way I see them on TV. The only difference is that there's no radiation-emitting screen between me and them. I also saw that John Cena does sweat, 'cause it seems like he doesn't on TV 'casue he always looks so freakin' clean all the time. But I wasn't able to feel even just a brush of his hand for fear of being crushed against the barricades, being the small person that I am. Also, when it was announced that the Main Event was next, I wanted to scream ,"WHAT? But where the hell is The Heartbreak Kid? HBK? The Showstopper? SHAWN MICHAELS?!!!?" and yell,"ILABAS NIYO NA SI SHAWN MICHAELS! MAMAYA NA SINA EDGE!" I was so frustrated that night I didn't enjoy the show that much.
Oh well.
At least John Cena was there. I was able to see his unmistakable cuteness in the flesh and hear his voice live, no not while rapping I wouldn't want that, but while you know, speaking. When I told Kat and Jam that I saw John Cena there Jam asked me why I didn't take him home. Hehe. As if.
So there, the summary of what happened that night. You know I was thinking and hoping that Smackdown will also visit here. Randy Orton...swoon! I'd definitely go. I'll even wear my RKO shirt and make a sign about Randy. Something that will say something like, I HEART U, RANDY. Yuck, corny...

. . .

So there, my very long entry. But it isn't that long, is it?

Mushy. Giddy. Euphoric

2006-02-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

I tied my hair up in a ponytail when I got home today. So that means I'm having a BAD HAIR DAY. But that wouldn't curb this mirthful feeling I'm having right now. YAEL YUZON. The sole reason of my inexplicable elation, the object of my extreme gushiness today(and probably until forever) and a guy of undeniable hotness. Those close to me know about how I feel for this adorable creation of God. They've witnessed how I'd squeal like a pig being butchered everytime I'd see his face anywhere. You know how fans cry and even faint when they see their idols in the flesh? Fortunately, none of that happened to me when I saw Yael last Saturday on La Salle's Green Fusion held in Ynares. To tell the truth, I only went because of Yael. We only went because of Yael. Even if I didn't get to see him at an intimate distance(dream on), I was close enough to see how uh, short he is? But he's très , tr ès cute, nothing can change that. I swear I've never been that exuberant and I've never screamed a guy's name out that loud before. We were singing(screaming) along with him at the top of our lungs. Me and Paola were still having a "Yael hang-over" a while ago that every little thing that we talk about is linked to him. When Mrs. Resu asked us what could make a marriage successful, I told Paola my answer: "If your man is the vocalist of Sponge Cola." Chrysol's cockroach bite on the eye even disappeared after she watched the show! See what Yael does to us?
YAEL ROCKS. Totally.

Can't you see that I've been dealt by this? Dealt by you...

What the F**k???

2006-02-01T09:30:00.000+08:00

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Albino Beekeeper.

Where You Lived: Peru.

How You Died: In Childbirth.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

A bit boyish?? Yeah right, you pompous wannabe..

2006-01-31T11:00:00.000+08:00

She is so stupid it's unbelievable...and laughable. How can she describe herself as "boyish" when she's more vain than the evil queen in Snow White? Uh, for your info, when you like the color pink and when you refer to yourself as a "princess"(oh, I swear I'm gonna puke), that's not boyish, that's girlier than the girliest whatsit in the face of the earth.
God, how I wish that prig would do herself a favor and just shut that stupid pie-hole of hers.

Randy, I Swear I'm Gonna Kill You! You're So Hot....

2006-01-30T11:50:00.000+08:00

You want to know something? Okay. I think Randy Orton is hot. I don't know why I suddenly found him cute just now when he's already around when I started watching wrestling. I don't know. I suddenly found him adorable, that's all. I just watched his match with Chris Benoit and I saw that he still looks adorable even when he is wincing in pain. And his body is just right. It's not exaggeratedly muscular unlike Bobby Lashley's and certainly not seriously obese like Mark Henry's.
Anyway, I'm gonna cut this gushing short 'cause...I've got nothing more to say! :)) Besides, if I write some more, I'm gonna say the same things over and over again. So, that's it for now.
The Legend Killer is the ultimate! Hell yeah!

"The Nurse"

2006-01-25T10:55:00.000+08:00

-The White Stripes-

The nurse should not be the one who puts salt in your wounds
But it's always with trust that the poison is fed with a spoon
When you're helpless with no one to turn to alone in your room
You would swear that the one who would care for you never would leave
She promised and said "You will always be safe here with me"
But promises open the door to be broken to me

No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down now
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down now
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down

The maid that you've hired could never conspire to kill
She's to mother, not quietly smother you when you're most ill
The one that you're trusting suspiciously dusting the sill

No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down now
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down now
No I'm never, no I'm never, no I'm never gonna let you down

Time goes by so slowly(not!)

2006-01-24T10:00:00.000+08:00

I'd have to disagree with that Madonna song.
Haven't anyone noticed that something utterly phenomenal but definitely weird is happening? Time. It's the time. It's like someone has pushed a fast forward button and the hours and the minutes and the seconds just went ZOOM! faster than Blaine the Mono. It seems like it was only yesterday when it was still 2005, now it's already the 23rd of January 2006! What is happening to the world?? Now, one hour doesn't seem so long anymore. Like one time when I looked at the clock and then I saw that it was 2 P.M., so I went upstairs and just sat on the bed and imagine my shock when I looked at the clock again and saw it was already 2:20! But it seems like I only sat there for about five minutes! Unbelievable. Impossible(with a Brit accent like Susan's and the White Witch's in Narnia).
Impossible.
Time is a gypsy man 'cause it never stays in place.
Hmm...where have I heard that before?
But it's undeniably, unregrettably correct. Hell yeah.

Resolutions, Resolutions It's Back To Stalag 14 Tomorrow and I Still Need "One Fucking Long Vacation"

2006-01-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

I've said bye-bye to 2005 and the bad moments it gave me with it. Well, 2005 was not a good year for me at all. Well, it was good until school started and bad luck started to rear its ugly head. Misery and frustration pursued me and embraced me and completely loved me although I showed no sign of loving them back. Grr...my life is so pathetic. I am so pathetic. What did I do te deserve all these? Or, do I really deserve it? Anyway, I think I'm gonna stop with this self-pity drama for a while.
Here, I've made a list of resolutions for 2006. Hmm...seems just like yesterday when Miss Jen made us write our New Year's Resolutions for 2005 in the back of our English test paper. Oh well, time flies...even when you're not having fun at all. Anyway, the list:

1. Banish all the laziness within my body.
-This has always been the first in my New Year's Resolutions for like, every year. Actually, until last year, this has only been my New Year's Resolution. Oh well...
2. Try to understand Geometry.
-It's good that my grade is a line of eight here(although it's still my lowest). But I want to really understand it with great profundity. Good luck to me, then. I've always hated Math. What's the point of it? Why can't we all just study English and books?
3. Finish the Dark Tower series.
-This needn't be a resolution. I will most definitley finish all seven of the Dark Tower books. I am currently on the third book now, The Waste Lands and I still lack the sixth and the seventh books. I guess I could say that I'm really hooked on it right now. In fact, I dreamed that I was a gunslinger one night last week. Like all the other dreams that I had, it's complicated and weird but I was still a gunslinger in the dream. Pretty cool, although I can't imagine myself firing a gun...
4. Try to make the most of my time.
-Whatever...
5. Pray really hard so that I can 'breakaway' and leave for Australia with my family.
-I envy the people I know who have managed to 'breakaway' out of this...this place and had left for other, progressive countries. Like Andy, for example, and two of my schoolmates who left for England. Oh, how lucky are they? Very, very lucky indeed.
6. Learn to play a musical instrument.
-I'm going to learn how to play the guitar on summer.
7. Learn more English terms.
-Georgia Nicolson had really been a great help. Hmm...it's been quite a while since I've read a book in a British accent. I used to do that. I used to read Hitty: Her First Hundred Years aloud with a Brit accent.
8. Sleep early.
-Oh, holy crap! It's almost 1:30 in the morning now. I might as well turn in now.

Beauty Killed The Beast

2005-12-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

"And the Beast looked into the face of Beauty and lo! his hand was stayed from killing and from that day forward he was as one dead." -an old Arabian proverb

Everyone knows(everyone who had watched the King Kong movies, that is) that King Kong is like Mme Leprince de Beaumont's "Beauty and the Beast", except that Kong didn't turn into a handsome prince. When I first saw the movie's trailer, my initial thought was "What the hell are dinosours doing in there?!" But I wasn't really looking forward to watching it but I insisted we go see it last Saturday after our school's v.v fun(not) Christmas party since I'm still not in the mood to review. Yes, our exams came after the Christmas party. Anyway, I knew the movie is three hours long, what I didn't expect was it was three long hours of nail-biting, almost-falling-off-my-seat experience. The movie contains scary-looking native people with red eyes and charcoal-black skin, flesh-eating T-rexes, harmless but totally huge brontosaurus rexes, other icky creatures that are non-existent in the real world and a cute Ryan Cabrera look-alike (Jamie Bell).
The movie is recommended only for kids aged 13 and up. But while I was in the cinema last Saturday and yesterday,(yup, I watched the movie twice) I could hear children crying and clamoring. I guess the parents failed to see before they watched the movie that Kong is a large, roaring gorilla whose nostrils are heart-shaped. I guess they thought that their kids wouldn't be scared of him since his face is plastered on Burger King billboards offering people to purchase King Kong tumblers or something.
Well, anyway, it's a must-see movie. I aime it. I aime Jamie Bell, too. Mwah, Jamie. You're definitely gorgeous, even if you dance ballet. And I used to think that male ballet dancers are undeniably gay. But you're not gay! Not someone as gorgy as you. No, no, no.

Wicked!

2005-12-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

Oh. My. Gosh. Without further ado, I'm gonna tell you what I'm "oh-my-goshing" about. Tetang, Miguel and me were waiting for the cinema to open because we were gonna watch Just Like heaven, so we decided to go to Astro Vision and check some CDs out. They sell more CDs there than in Odyssey...tsk tsk. Anyway, I was choosing CDs that I'm planning to buy, or what I'm gonna ask my dad to buy for me. A movie was playing in the three televisions that were hanging above the racks of CDs. But I didn't pay much attention to it because the movie was not familiar. If Miguel hadn't remarked, "Uy, mukhang maganda yung movie oh" I wouldn't have seen it. I looked up and saw the face of Tara Reid...and then of David Boreanz. I was like, Oh my God. The Crow 4. Edward Furlong. I was shaking Miguel and was literally jumping with pure euphoria. Edward Walter Furlong, the object of my profoundest affections, next to Gerard, that is.
I know he's not that good-looking, Devon Sawa-type of guy but I don't know, I've always liked him since I saw him in Detroit Rock City one morning during an exam day. I remember I was planning to get some studying done but I wasn't able to because of my beloved Eddie. I didn't finish the film 'cause I still had to take a bath and get dressed. I don't know, when I saw him, I knew I already love him. No, just kidding. I know I've seen that face somewhere before. But I couldn't remember where. But I found him really cute.
So anyway, there was one scene there in which he sat on a bar, nervous because he signed up in a macho dancing contest in which he'd have to dance on stage for drooling old women. He ordered a drink and was about to pay for it but the bartender said he didn't have to because it was all on the woman sitting on the other side of the room. When Eddie saw the woman was a hot chick with long legs, he turned back to the bartender and said, "SSShit!" Oh my God! He looked so cute when he said "SSShit!". And when it was finally his turn to dance on stage, he requested for a Kiss song and he was so drunk and everything around was spinning. But still, he managed to dance. And when he danced, GOSH! I swear to God it was so cute! He was like strumming on an imaginary electric guitar and he even took his shirt and his pants off, revealing his Kiss boxers! So this is how my deepest devotion for Edward began. I've been looking for a Detroit Rock City DVD since then. Actually, I've been looking for any DVD that has Edward in it. I've asked in Video City if they have a Terminator 2 VCD but unfortunately, they don't.
When Just Like Heaven was over, we passed by Astro Vision again. And we saw on the screen that the credits are already rolling. But we're not sure if it was The Crow but if it was, then it's a pretty long film. But anyway, I'm going to the dentist again tomorrow and I'm gonna ask dad to buy me the The Crow 4 DVD. If they don't have a DVD and only a VCD, I swear I'd throw a fit and burn the mall down. Hehe. Kidding. Watch out, Eddie! I'm gonna buy you! I mean...your movie.

Ho-hum. No classes. today...again.

2005-12-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

"Catch My Fall"
-Katy Rose-

I wonder why it always feels like rain
My life is like some cheap champagne
The answers don't always seem to fit
My glass is full, but it tastes like shit

I need a quick decision
And a cheap reward
I'm in my last revision
Hey...

So I'll cry just a little bit longer
And I'll stay two seconds more
And I'll try to be stronger
And I'll see if you catch my fall

I can't tell if what I did was wrong
Still you followed me like a sing-along
I can't tell if what I did was right
But you let me go like your sister's kite

I need a quick decision
And a cheap reward
I'm in my last revision
Hey...

So I'll cry just a little bit longer
And I'll stay two seconds more
And I'll try to be stronger
And I'll see if you catch my fall

Yea yea yeaaaaa
Yea yea yeaaaaa
Yea yea yeaaaaaaaaaaaa

I've made my last decision
And got some cheap reward
I need no man's premision

[instrumental]

So I'll cry just a little bit longer
And I'll stay two seconds more
And I'll try to be stronger
And I'll see if you catch my fall
If you catch my fall
Catch my fall
Ya catch my fall
Fall

---I think this song best describes how I'm feeling right now. How I'm feeling about life, its ironies and I'm wondering if something good will ever happen to me. Anyway, here's an update on what's been going on with my life so far:

-I've bidden farewell to my good 'ol (ancient) Nokia 2100 phone that has been my companion for three years now. It has seen me through my ups and downs, it has nearly gotten lost several times (like once in a tricycle and once in school) but still it had stayed with me. And now I have bequeathed it to my brother, who wasn't happy at all because he also wanted an MMS phone but we explained to him that he's too young to be given a colored and an expensive phone so he got disappointed and kept his mouth shut while we ate dinner and on the way home. But anyway, pushing my brother aside, it was ba-bye Nokia 2100, hello Nokia 6101. Why I chose it? Simple. I want a clamshell phone. Actually, what I really wanted was a Samsung phone but I chose the 6101 because a.) it's a Nokia so I didn't have a hard time trying to learn how to use it and b.) it's really cute! So there.

-Since I've bidden bye-bye to my old phone and said hello to a new one, I've also said hello to a new sunburnt skin. We went to Zmabales last weekend and I didn't intend to stay in the water for a long time but I couldn't help it. The water is so blue and so clear...
Good thing we have no classes starting today until Friday. I can lock myself in my parents' airconditioned room all day.

-I'm also gonna be saying hello to braces. Tomorrow, I'll be going to the dentist. I honestly can't picture myself with braces. Hmm? Dad said I'm gonna look like Eliza Thornberry and pretty soon, he said he might see me talking to stray cats and dogs on the street. Well, That's my dad.

That's all.

-Oh and I forgot. I've finished reading The Devil Wears Prada. It was a pretty good read but Shopaholic is still better. The "Devil" here is the main character Andrea's boss Miranda Priestly. She says "That's all" by means of ending a conversation or enumerating a series of errands for Andrea. I've finished the book before I studied for my first day of exam last week and at the end of the book, someone there sang American Pie. So while I was reviewing that night, the lyrics Bye, bye Miss American Pie drove my Chevee to the levee but the levee was dry/ Ad good 'ol boys were drinking whiskey and rye/ Singing this will be the day that I die/ This will be the day that I die was playing over and over again in my head. Uh, wala lang. Just wanted to share it with you guys.

That's all.

Eddie Guerrero and Scary Images In My Head

2005-11-17T14:00:00.000+08:00

So I found out about Eddie's death last Monday. I read a while ago in the website of WWE that the cause of his untimely death is a heart failure. His wife said that the heart failure has got something to do with his past drug addiction. Tsk, tsk. How sad. It is indeed a big loss for WWE since Eddie is one of WWE'S biggest superstar. Oh...JBL is the one who should've died. He sucks and I hate him. Plus, I've noticed that he had gained some weight. I mean, look at his tummy. UGH. As if looking at the Big Show isn't enough to make me fill up a pitcher with puke.
Anyway, last Monday night when dad saw the commercial in JackTV with the "We Will Miss You Eddie", he began imitating Eddie's accent, in order to scare my younger brother. So later that night, while I was playing PS2, I kept imagining that Eddie would appear in the mirror near my parent's bed. I had imagined him appearing there, smiling the way he does when he's mocking an opponent, and flames shot up from below him. I even told my brother to bury his Edie action figure because I had imagined it walking at night. (But my brother didn't bury it. He just placed it somewhere in which it was hidden from plain view) See, I have a very vivid imagination. Since I saw The Exorcist, I couldn't sleep in my own room anymore. Scary images would fill my head everytime I'm alone. I just have to stop watching scary movies. So there's no way I'm going to watch The Exorcism of Emily Rose with Tetang. Not in a million years. I'd rather watch Mulawin:The Movie and be labelled baduy than be haunted by more scary images every night.

WWE and Paris Hilton

2005-11-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

Drama and action combined in one great show. That's WWE. I just love this show. And I find the idea that super macho wrestlers (super as in sometimes, I find it impossible that their bodies are real) almost seem to kill each other in a v.v physical fight for a huge belt and a so-called title. Also, I'm just wondering if wrestlers are required to get rid of the hairs on their underarms? I just noticed that their underarms are more hair-free and whiter than a deodorant model's.

Paris Hilton
Wala lang. I just feel like writing about her. You're a complete moron if you won't agree that she's hot. She looks like a Barbie doll without looking like she spent hours in order to look like that. I know I'm supposed to hate filthy rich people who think it's cool to be famous because their parents are either millionares or just famous. For example, I hate Kris Aquino and KC Concepcion (yes, she's pretty and all that but I just can't get myself to like her). Also, I know that she dated Edward Furlong and I'm supposed to hate girls that my boyfriends (ok, here I go again...pagbigyan n'yo na lang ako) dated. But Paris is different. I guess it's her personality. She's funny and she just goes on and does anything she wants. In short, she doesn't care about others or what others think. She's rich and she can do anything she wants. And we shouldn't care. Some people think she's a skank, like that VJ in MTV(the one with the twin). But for me, she's just a spoiled, rich girl that some people love and some people hate, living her life and enjoying it. And that's hot.

The Exorcist and W.A.M.M.P.

2005-11-04T06:20:00.000+08:00

I am currently haunted by some scenes from The Exorcist. There's no way I'm going to watch it again, even if Edward Furlong asks me to. It was just so freakishly scary! It's definitely second on my list of Movies That Scared The Hell Out Of Me, next to The Grudge (the Japanese one).
Anyway, I think if I'm going to have an album and I'll name it after my favorite words like Gwen Stefani's L.A.M.B., it's going to be W.A.M.M.P.: Whirlwind. Anew. Murder. Mediocre. Prairie.
Oh God. What a lazy day...

Cannibalism and People I'm Hating...right now

2005-10-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

THESE ARE PEOPLE WHO DESERVE TO BE EATEN BY CANNIBALS
First is my...well, I'm not gonna put any adjectives here anymore. Well...my English teacher. I just can't understand how she came to be accepted as an English teacher. I mean...she...she's just...whenever she asks us to write something like, for example, an essay, she'd give examples and write it on the board. And her grammar kinda...sucks...if you know what I mean. And her diction is kinda funny. And when she reads a poem or a story out loud...man, you should hear her. She's like, O.A....exaggerated. Like she's reading to a bunch of kindergarten kids.
I want to be a journalist. And English is my favorite subject ever since. But with her as my teacher, how can I like English more? I love writing. But she's not helping me develop it. She commits more grammar mistakes than I do. And, get this, she doesn't even know how to translate nakunan to English. Duh. Miscarriage. Oh, Ms. Jen, Sir Edilio, why did you two have to go? Whyohwhyohwhyohwhy?
I'd love it if: She will be eaten by an old lady beggar she helped in the streets but turned out to be a hungry cannibal.

Now, the next person who deserves to be locked up in a room full of bees is a schoolmate of mine. Gio Bueno. This guy's got a really huge conk. Yes, a seriously big, huge, gigantic nose. We used to sing Heaven Knows (Nose) to him when we were freshmen. But I seriously thought he's alright. Until a while ago. He called me Patay na Bata. A phrase which means something like a geek or a student who doesn't join in on the fun. I don't think he meant it as a joke. He doesn't have the right to call me that. Who does he think he is?
I'd throw a party if: He accidentally slips while walking and his skull would crack open.

God, I think I'm becoming a pscyho.

Yes Way!

2005-10-26T06:50:00.000+08:00

I just want to share with you guys these photos of the guy I'm going to marry...
Yes, I'm going to marry him no matter what happens!
On our wedding day, which is going to be on August 17, 20-whatever(ooh, that's random)the motif will be black. And I want black-clad ballerina dancers to dance around while we walk down the aisle. Type O Negative's Love You To Death will be the official wedding theme song...
...but anyway, back to the present...and to reality, I just can't get enough of Gerard after I saw him in MCR's new video Ghost Of You. I just have to say that he looks so fucking cute in the video. Sure, he had me crushing on him the first time I saw him in I'm Not Okay, in spite of the Snape-like hair and the black-lined eyes. But in Ghost Of You, he looked different. If you've seen the video, I'm sure you know what I mean. I was like, Swoon! Swoon!
I think I'm already in love with him.

Our PC...Is Dying.

2005-10-18T11:00:00.000+08:00

But that's not what I'm going to blog about today.
Last Saturday, I interviewed two girls for my blogging story in KNN. The first one is Nicay's friend while the second one is a 2nd year H.S student from Miriam. So I decided to interview myself about blogging. I'm gonna ask myself some of the questions I asked the interviewees. Well, here it goes:

Lea: Can you say your name and how old you are?
Lea: I'm Lea and I'm 15 years old. I study in a school with doorless CRs and a "fetus fun-sucker" for a principal.

Lea: Where did you hear or how did you learn about blogging?
Lea: I first learned about blogging in Candy mag because they have this section called "Blogger of the Month" in which they feature different bloggers and a small part of that person's latest entry in her blog. So from that, I kind of like figured what a blog is already. And it was summer vacation when I decided to create an account here in Blogger.

Lea: For you, what is the difference between online journals and written journals?
Lea: Written journals are, of course, private. It is strictly for the user's eyes only. And the user can write anything that he/she wants without having to worry about the feelings of others or what they'd say. While in the case of online journals, of course it will be displayed online. So, anyone can view it. Of course in online journals, you have to be careful in what you write because some people may not agree with you. And in online journals, since it's public, you also have to be careful about giving out too much info about yourself.

Lea: Are you comfortable with having strangers read about your life, your thoughts?
Lea: It's okay with me. That's the purpose of blogs anyway. And it can also be a great opportunity to meet new friends through viewing each other's blogs and dropping a comment.

Lea: What do you usually blog about?
Lea: Usually, I write about my day, if anything interesting happened. And I write my rants, raves and sometimes random thoughts. And sometimes, I also write about a book I've just read or a movie I've just seen.

Lea: What kind of blogs do you have?
Lea: I only have a Blogger. I created an account in LiveJournal but I've given up on it because it's too complicated.

Lea: What do you think are the advantages and disadvantages of blogging?
Lea: Advantages...you can express yourself through writing. Disadvantages...uhm...of course we can't avoid "thieves" in the 'Net. There are two things they're good at: Copy and Paste. So they might "steal" a picture, an article, a poem or a story you posted. But there are codes that disable right-clicking.

Lea: Do you have any tips for the people who wants to try blogging?
Lea: Try it. It's fun! But you also need patience in blogging because those HTML codes can get so complicated.

---Well...that was fun.