By Skye Sweetnam:
Fallen Through

I do what he says but I
end up falling off the edge
I don't know what to do, never seems
To end up being true
Seeps in underneath the door
Sinks in and stains the floor
I don't know what to feel takes so long
For these wounds to heal
Tell me it's not really real

[Chorus:]
Fallen through
Why did I fall for you?
Fallen for
All the lies, alibis, that you said
Left me holding on by the last thread

Stop, stare, and watch me burn
Someday it'll be your turn
Can't fool me, I can see all the things
that you don't want me to see
You threw my heart away
That's the price that I paid
I know it's never fair, promised me
You'd always be there
But you never really cared

[Chorus 3x]

---This song is for you. You know who you are. Although I'm not even sure if you have any idea about the existence of this blog. Anyway, I can't think of a much better song to describe what feeling for you right now. I want to hate you. Despise you. To abhor you. But right now, I've no control of my heart. It's got a life of its own. From now on, this song is officially dedicated to YOU, you...you...never mind. This song is officially dedicated to you along with Alanis Morissette's "Head Over Feet". End.

"Heart Of Glass"

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

In between
What I find is pleasing and I'm feeling fine
Love is so confusing there's no peace of mind
If I fear I'm losing you it's just no good
You teasing like you do

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

Lost inside
Adorable illusion and I cannot hide
I'm the one you're using, please don't push me aside
We coulda made it cruising, yeah

Yeah, riding high on love's true bluish light

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out to be a pain in the ass
Seemed like the real thing only to find
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind

"Tangled Up In Me"

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
I'm the one that's honking at you cuz I left late again

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse phsychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You think that you know me
You think that I'm only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!

Hey! Hey!

Get tangled up in me

"Number One"

I saw my boyfriend hanging with this girl that I hate
He didn't have to tell me why last night he was late
I can't believe what you tell me
Your lies have come undone
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

I took a ride to the city
Had to get out of this place
I just can't stand the pity
When the tears fall down my face
I used to think it was over
But its only just begun
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I hitched a ride on a Greyhound stashed away on a train
Bought a ticket for the subway
Playin' guitar in the rain
I wanna follow the rivers to an island in the sun
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one

One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
Late at night trying to fight
I just might think about him
Right now I'm feeling fine
I'm better off without him ya!
One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I know that one day you'll see me
I'll haunt you when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I'm number one

---Catchy, catchy songs. I can relate to the lyrics very much.
....But still, life's a bitch. Nothing can change that. I hate my life right now.

Warning: Spoiler. If you haven't watched the movie yet, and is still planning to, skip this entry. But if you're not planning to watch the movie, well...I can't do anything about that, can I? But I'm telling you, you don't know what you're missing...


"Walk down the right back alley in Sin City and you can find anything..."

An all-star cast, action-packed...plus Josh Hartnett and Clive Owen(swoon!swoon!). What more can I ask for from a movie? This movie deserves a two-thumbs up! Yan tuloy, I want to read the graphic novels, but I'm still planning to purchase all the A Series of Unfortunate Events books, and I still lack the fifth book. And I still want other things besides books.
But anyway, back to Sin City, I hardly ate my breakfast a while ago. This is because of a scene from the movie. I admit that I'm a sqeamish person. The sight of blood alone can make me lose my appetite. How much more the sight of Elijah Wood tied up with his legs chopped off revealing...I don't know how to describe it but all I can say is that it is very disgusting to look at. But that's not all. A wolf, which is supposed to be his partner in eating people(yes, Elijah's character Kevin eats people in the movie) comes and...I know you can guess what the wolf did. I mean, you probably know what wolves do, right? Although that part was, let's say, made to look less realistic, it still made me want to throw up. I mean it was gross, right? Like something out of Rotten.
The movie is divided into three stories. That gruesome scene was from the story of Marv, a tough street fighter who risked his life just to avenge a slut whom he slept with for one night and whom he barely knows. This story is the one I liked the least. Partly because of the scene with the wolf and partly because I think getting caught by the police and getting yourself killed in an electric chair all because of a woman you hardly know is stupid. But still, Marv did a very kind (although I think silly) thing.
The second story which is entitled The Big, Fat Kill is the one I liked the best. It is full of action, plus, Clive Owen looked really cool...and cute wearing that coat and fighting off bad guys and the cops with a gun. Plus, the character Miho is soooooooo astig! The story is about Old Town, a place where hookers reside and where the cops stay out of their way because of a truce made between the girls and the police. But Dwight(Clive Owen) along with a deadly girl Miho accidentally killed a hero cop and his friends. And since that was against the rules of the truce, Dwight tried to throw the bodies into a pit where he thought no one could find them. But one of the girls gave them away and so the police and the girls of Old Town went to war against each other once again.
The last story is okay. It is about how a cop rescues an 11-year-old girl, Nancy, from the clutches of an evil child molester who happens to be the only son of a powerful senator. And since the senator is sooo powerful, the police wouldn't believe Nancy when she insisted that Bruce saved her. Instead, they accused Bruce of raping Nancy and when he wouldn't confess, they placed him behind bars. For 8 years, Nancy wrote to Bruce every week, using a different name and was very careful not to give too much information about herself. But one day, the letters stopped arriving. And a hideous yellow creature visited him one day, followed by an envelope with a skin from an index finger of a person which he thought was Nancy's. So he thought that the senator's son had found her. So he did the only thing he could do to get the hell out of there and save Nancy once again: he confessed. Turns out, the two had actually fallen in love with each other. A 19-year-old exotic dancer and an old man(as he liked to call himself in the movie) with a heart disease. And Nick Stahl appeared as the ugly yellow creature with a big tummy. The story's ending was quite sad, actually.
But all in all, I enjoyed the movie. Although I was kinda disappointed because Josh Hartnett's role is very short...and useless. He's not one of the lead characters, he's just an extra. Oh well, at least the movie was entertaining, like they said it is. It was truly astig.

The rain won't stop. Heaven is probably crying for me. I feel so depressed as ever. So right now, I'm devouring a Hershey's milk chocolate. But it is doing nothing whatsoever to ease my depression. Nothing interesting is happening in my life. It seems like everything is just a swirling mass of nothing.
Nothing, absolutely nothing is making me happy! If I'm suicidal, then perhaps I'm already a decaying corpse six feet under. But no, I'm sane enough, thankyouverymuch.
And I don't have anything to blog about anymore. Life is like Count Olaf. The only thing it likes to do is bring me a series of unfortunate events. It's so unfair!

Nothing happened today that is worth being alive for...

I can't believe I did it! My friends saluted me. They said it was a very brave thing to do. But I'd like to think I just made a complete fool of myself. But still...arrgh! I don't know what to think right now! And now the best thing I could do is...wait. We'll see if something will happen. I'll WAIT. Life is all about waiting, anyway.

August 25
*Sigh*
What a tearful day that was. I cried first during lunchtime, because of "HIM". Then after dinner that night when my dad scolded me for being so thin. But I guess the real reaon why I cried (again) that night is not because I was scolded but because of "HIM" again. Well, what can I say? I can't hold it any longer. You know when you're just crying your eyes out and you know you should stop because everybody's looking at you already but you just can't stop? Well, I had that. During lunchtime that day. I just broke down. I guess the pain is just too much, as exaggerated and dramatic as it may sound. And, there, at that moment, I realized that what I'm feeling for him is real. Surely, I wouldn't have cried over him if I'm just crushing on him, wouldn't I? It's...I don't know, I'm confused. I mean, what was that? Why am I doing these crazy, stupid things for him? Like, calling him "Skittles", announcing that I'm gonna be a nun all because he's already got a girlfriend, vowing to myself that I'm never gonna have a boyfriend unless it's him. See? I'm going crazy! He sucks! He's ruining my life! I shouldn't have let him walk into my life in the first place, and, into my heart. 'Cause now, he had ruined my life and had totally made a complete mess in my heart. But I know there's no escaping from this "spell" he had bewitched me with(although he is totally clueless about it). I've been dealt by this now. Now, I'm stuck on him. *Sighs hopelessly* Love sucks. It definitely sucks.

Text messages that striked me smack in the heart(even though they may be a bit corny):
From Ethel...and D.Lynn:
"When you love someone,
You'll fight for what you feel..
But if the one you love, loves someone else,
"LET GO"...
Be like a soldier
Who knows when to fight and
When to surrender.."

From D.Lynn:
"Isn't it sad
When you have so much pain in the heart
And the only person
You want to talk to
And can make you stop crying
Is exactly the same person
Who made you cry..."

From D.LYNN(again and again):
"Nasabi mo na ba sa sarili mo na sana hnd mo siya nakilala?
Na sana hindi ka umasa? Na sana di ka nasaktan?
Ako madaming beses na pero
Pag naaalala ko kung paano niya ko napapasaya
Bumabalik ako sa pagiging tanga!"

---God! I promised I'll never post another entry like this ever! Grr...curse this thing called "love"...